Mr kittons fan fiction #1 Love even after death

The question we are both to affraid to ask

It has been two weeks sense mr kittens was found.
And how do I explain this?
I ,I have been getting dreams,with mr kittens in them,I visit and talk to him but we never talk about his death
Well today,I'm going to finally ask him why he left.
I pad into the living room and doze off.
My tail swishes and I begin to purr softly.

I wake up,the sun is bright and I can see mr kittens,his fur has no empty patches now and he looks happy,he pounces on a butterfly like a young,agile kit.
We are in a daisy field,I walk up to him,
I need to see him,I need to say something too him.
"hello?mr kittens"
He turns and looks at me with those same familiar anxious bug-eyes.
"MORT?"
He pounces on me. He begins to lick my ears and cuddle up to my stomach.
"I need to ask you somthing"
"ok,what is it?" he mews softly

"Wh-why did you leave?" I ask him,with a lump in my throat.
"I couldn't stay,mort,you have to understand,I was sick."
He looks at me with sorry eyes. "I NEEDED YOU!" I hiss loudly. I soon regret my aggressive tone,when he looks down at his paws and begins to fall to the ground.
His eyes get grayish and he looks at me in a confused haze,"who are you?" "and why are you so mad at me?" he mews sadly .
His memory is fading,my memory of him is fading,and i don't know how many more times i can visit him till he forgets me all together.

"I'm mort,I came into your life a few springs ago,i always used to attack you,you hated me for a bit,thought i was gonna steal your mother from you."
"and did you?"
"no" I reply,gentle caressing his furry cheeks.
He yanks his head away from me. And pads off into the sunset.
I let out a sad sigh. And watch as he fades into the pink and orange sky.
How much longer till he forgets? How much more time till it's time for me to move on?
How do you move on from some-kit who loved you at your worst,and your best?
How do you forget?