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: ̗̀➛ Chapter Two

Guys this chapter will have angst in it bc i said so<3, also tw for implied self-harm.

H/p/n - Hated Persons name

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Y/n POV

*Sigh*

11:30am I arrived, the storm stopped at 4:30pm.  

"Hey Bene, the storm stopped can I grab my groceries?" 

"Yea, Y/n" Bene said while handing me my groceries from his fridge. I then started to walk home bags full of groceries in hand. Its still a bit dark outside from the storm but I should be fine. While I was walking home I passed by an ally way. 

*Cling* 
Something moved in the ally way, I couldn't help but want to go check it out. All though I know I shouldn't, for all I know it could be a night. Knowing I shouldn't I still went into the ally way, lucky for me it was only a rat. "Still scary though" I laughed to myself, and then the rat came towards me. I've never screamed louder in my whole life. I heard quick pasted footsteps behind me. 

"Oh, it's just you Y/n." I heard a deep voice behind me speak, I jumped at the noise.

"OH MY GOD MACABRE LEAVE ME ALONE!" I said turning around to look him in the eyes. 

"Ah, go home Y/n I though someone was fucking dying because of your high pitch scream. I would've been happy to witness death, but I just get your annoying ass." Macabre laughed.

"Rude." I mumbled before walking past him, getting back on my way to my residence.

"Do you wanna get shot?" Macabre said going to grab his gun from his holster.

"NOPE!" I yelled back before running down the street trying to get home as fast as possible.

TW; Mention of Self-harm.
I arrived home and began to put my groceries away. When I was finished I checked the time, 8:30pm I sighed thinking of what to do now. "I'll just head to bed after I shower." I said to myself walking up the stairs. Arriving to the bathroom a grabbed a towel from the bathroom closet. After undressing I hopped into the shower,  the hot water directly hitting one of my cuts. "God that fucking hurt" I mumbled to myself, "I'm normally used to this feeling the cut must be deeper than my other ones" I said to myself. After washing my hair (sorry if you're bald) and body I got out of the shower and headed to bed. 

End of self-harm mention.

~Time skip to the morning~

I woke up to the noises of civilians outside. I sighed getting out of bed. "God how messy do I sleep-" I talked to myself looking at the blankets and pillows practically spread all over my bed. I quickly made my bed and then headed downstairs, I grabbed a bowl and poured some cereal into it. Then poured my milk in and placed a spoon in the bowl. After eating I cleaned up and got ready for my day. When I was finished getting ready I made my way out the door. I walked down the street to see someone I definitely didn't want to see, the person I hate most. H/p/n, I sighed praying they won't notice me if I just walk past them. 

"Oh, Y/nnnnn!!" H/p/n said while shooting my a glare and then winking at me, they act we're still in love. After everything they did to me, I rolled my eyes at them pretending to act like I didn't hear or see them.

"Y/n, that lovely person over there called your name." I looked up to see Radiant right Infront of me. I sighed.

"Not lovely if anything the opposite." I told Radiant shooting him a annoyed glare. Radiant grabbed my hand and walked me to his empty theater. 

"Explain to me why you hate Civilian H/p/n, so much?" Radiant said with a mix of annoyance and worry in his voice. 

"They are just a shitty person, okay?" I said to Radiant feeling like I was about to cry and scream at the same time. Radiant looked at me with worry in his eyes.

"There's a reason you say that." Radiant said to me giving me a worried look.

"Listen it's a lot that I don't wanna tell you about yet, okay? It just.." I sighed hearing my voice crack knowing I'm gonna cry soon. Radiant pulled me into a hug. I began to cry, I couldn't help it. I just hate them so much thinking about them makes me fucking cry. I felt so weak for crying Infront of a operative, it made me feel so stupid. I always try to be seen as a strong civilian, but I just have to ruin that by crying Infront of a operative, huh?

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I hope it doesn't come off as if I'm trying to romanticize self-harm, I'm not trying to in anyway. I've just never seen a DU fanfic mentioning the reader self-harming at all and I feel like it's need for the people in the community who want to feel less alone, hopefully that makes sense. I just want everyone to know that you're not alone, if you struggle with self-harm I recommend you reach out for help. I love you and I hope you all have a good day/night<3.