𝐞𝐥𝐦𝐚𝐱 :: The Next Door Neighbors

dear dad.

dear dad, i'm losing myself.
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TW: death, self-loathing.

i hold my breath as i quietly walk into the house,
a horrible, nervous feeling,
twirling around in my body.
my hands starting to shake,
and-

and its like im back
in that place, again.
in that exact moment.
i cant do this.

i stop midway walking in, and shut my eyes, trying to plan out a good explaination to will about the bike.

"where is my bike, jane?"

oh Gosh.

its will,
with a cold tone.
hes standing right
in front of me.

he's mad.
what do i do.
im scared.
its just a bike,
why cant will understand that?
no one cares about anything gifted from mike. eugh, mike.

i slowly open my eyes, and see him, will.

he looks..
so pale..
is he... alright..?

"my bike, jane. where is it?!"

"i- i dont know-"

i respond, with a slightly shaking voice, as i close the front door behind me, focusing on how horrible he looks.

is my brother okay?

i continue looking
at him, hes sitting
at the bottom of the stairs.

it looked like he was waiting for me, this whole time.

"you know where it is!
where did you take it?"

"will, i said i do-"

"bullshit, jane!"

what. the. hell.
will never swears.
will never swears at me.
hes mad.
hes mad.

"the hell, will? i really dont know where it is! how would i know where your bike is?!"

"i saw you take it."

what.

"i saw you... from the window.
im not stupid, if thats what you think."

a moment of silence
fills the air.

"will... i didnt-"

"stop lying, for
once in your life!
and just once, tell the truth!"

----- memory -----

"you know you can trust me,
right, jane?"

silence.

she takes a deep breath.

"jane, this will only work, if you corporate."

"i dont want to."

"just tell the truth, jane.
what happened."

silence.

"jane, you have t-"

"i said no."

the "no" sent a shiver up everyones spine.
the no was powerful,
from someone who isnt
so powerful, nor controlling of their own life.