Looking For Another Perspective
By geekypnai13
Kevin walks into the seemingly abandoned MDG building, everyone else is enjoying their weekend of this Halloween holiday.
Quite frankly, a very weak holiday to have off considering what just happens here in America. Seriously, at least back home it was meaningful. Children dressing up and getting candy that'll rot their tiny little teeth and make their bodies explode... and for their parents to attempt to dress like sluts is beyond me...
He takes his office key out of his pocket and proceeds to open the door. He swings it shut behind him and sits down in his chair. He leans back and closes his eyes briefly, thinking of what's happened the past few days. His mind begins with Jon.
Someone who's been there for me, has sacrificed everything for me. He left his job to be here with me, to support me. He's a man that anyone would be jealous of. He's very handsome, very talented... and very dedicated. When can I say that I've stopped loving a man like him? I mean... compared to him, Patrick is just... he's so unorganized, so indecisive. I never know what's going to come out of Patrick's mouth, whether it's good or bad. I can't sense what actions he'll do or won't do... He's a complete fucking mystery... but... he's exactly what I feel I need... He... Oh god... How is it, my mind always manages to crawl back to him when I want it to least...? I should get started on this game... I have to try and get this damn thing perfected.
He sighs a long, exhausted sigh saturated with stress and woe. He bends down, turns the computer on and gets it running. He replays the game, over and over, unable to get the perfect score. He places his controller down, rubbing his eyes in attempt to rid of the fatigue that's washed over him these past few days. It's got Jon worried out of his mind, thinking it's about work and how he's working far too many hours at the office lately and that he should just come home when he's done... If only that were the case...
Kevin picks up the controller and picks up where he left off, unpausing the game and trying to get through the levels without a single thought of Patrick but it's so hard. Thoughts of Patrick keep invading his mind, conquering over anything he attempts to prioritize. This game, which he very much well knows needs to progress, is losing the battle over Patrick, much like everything else. He can't even assess the situation between Jon and himself without Patrick coming into mind. There's been countless loveless nights between Jon and Kevin because the only thing he can think about is Patrick and lying next to that train wreck of a man that sets his heart aflame and his loins a-tented.
A couple hours pass and Kevin is still hard at work at the game. He's staring at the screen intensely, still trying to multitask in not thinking of Patrick, the break off, and perfecting the game all at once. In his mind, it's racing a million miles a minute, should he stay with Jon? Should he stay in a perfectly safe relationship, where nothing can go wrong and every day will be a safe day to wake up with no risks except for what outside has to offer? Did he technically already let something from the outside world already attempt to wreck what they had? Does he have any right to say that as if it was the outsider's fault?
I mean... he was coming onto me from the fucking beginning... but that's no reason for me... I should have resisted my fucking emotions. I never should have let them shown... Everything would be perfect, I could still be friends with Patrick... I could... I could just... I could have just shut my damn mouth and just... kept my feelings in check. How could I possibly not fall for him? Despite all his shit... how could I not fall in love with him? When he's busy not beating himself up, he's the jolliest bloke I've ever met. He's friendly, emotional, uncertain, sexy, confusing, hot, cute, adorable, beautiful, and....
The door swings open to reveal the very man his thoughts were being assaulted by.
... unpredictable.
