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~ "Love is not love~
~Which alters when it alteration finds,
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken."~
Shakespeare, Sonnet 116.
"Those who love, are clueless to the reality of
the agony and terrors that awaits in their future"
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Small recap: Fyodor finds Nikolai, in an unknown alleyway in Yokohama after hours of searching for the man. The two decided to stay around a week in Yokohama, Fyodor messaging the Organization, informing of their absentees for the week. Now Nikolai and Fyodor were hanging out again, as they used too.
Nikolai gets up, shaking. Yesterday, he had went out with Fyodor, and spending such a good time together, he didn't understand why he had a nightmare. He shifts positions slowly, in order not the hurt himself, next to him, was Fyodor, sleeping soundly. The clock struck midnight. It had been their 5th day stay here in Yokohama, Nikolai let's out a tired dissapointed sigh. It had been so much fun with Fyodor here, as they went out a lot, the previous days they had went shopping, the always lifeless eyes finally sparkling, even if it was just a bit, Nikolai saw it all. Nikolai looks over at the sleeping raven haired, Nikolai caresses his face, playing with Fyodor's hair a bit, it was rather soft, considering Nikolai forced Fyodor to finally wash his hair. The white ushanka was hung on the clothing rack, to dry for the night, the jester wished that this moment could never end, that he could spend the rest of his days with Fyodor. Nikolai suddenly realised what he was thinking, anxiety rose in him, if he stayed close with Fyodor like this, it would mean that freedom was useless and only a dream as Fyodor was trapping him with the chains of feelings, preventing him from flying away. He stayed there, Fyodor sleeping next to him soundly, Nikolai was slowly regaining his composure.
"If I want freedom, I'll need to kill you" Nikolai says quietly, in attempt to not wake Fyodor up. The raven hair moves his hand, now rested on Nikolai's thigh, "Kolya, go to sleep it's late" Fyodor says in a half asleep state, Nikolai nods in agreement, falling into his arms of a trap again. The next morning, Nikolai wakes up from somebody shaking his shoulders awake, Nikolai lets out a groan of annoyance, only to realize it was Fyodor. "5 more minutes.." Nikolai says sleepily, turning and putting the blankets on himself, Fyodor sighs, pulling Nikolai into a sitting position. "I'll do what you want if you get up" Fyodor says in his usual tone, Nikolai jolting awake as the energy rushed into him in an instant. "Anything?~" Nikolai asks with a smirk, "Yes, anything" Fyodor replies back involuntarily, Nikolai pulls him into a surprise kiss, Fyodor having a shock face before pulling away. "The hell Nikolai?!" Fyodor says, his voice stuttering almost, Nikolai laughs. "Oh come on Fedya! Take a little joke" Nikolai replies with a smug face, Fyodor was angry, but kept himself composed, going back to his original self. "Just..don't do that again" Fyodor replies back after an awkward silence. The two get ready for the day, by now Fyodor's ushanka was dry luckily, so he happily wore it, despite Nikolai insisting that he doesn't for once.
For the next two days, they hung out happily together, from going out to eat at restaurants to just taking a small walk in silence. As much as both (surprisingly) didn't want it to end, Fyodor knew that they would need to get going back as soon as possible, otherwise their boss would most likely tell at them. On the last day, Nikolai brings Fyodor with him to the hill on the other side of town. Today was a calm windy breeze, the sun was setting and the leaves blew into both the men's faces. They laughed together, enjoying their time together like they never had before, because when Nikolai was with Fyodor, he felt happy, like he was at peace. The duo sat down, watching as the sun set before their own eyes. Nikolai rested his head on Fyodor's lap, Fyodor caressing and playing with Nikolai's silky white hair, which by now, was loose and rubber bands were broken. There was a silence between the two men, but it was a rather comfortable one, considering they were close friends enjoying their time, having the moment together up on a hill on the other side of the city in which they were staying and watching the sun set. Finally, Nikolai spoke up, "My dear, this trip has been a very fun trip, do you not agree?" Nikolai spoke up, breaking the silence between them.
"Yes it has, but now it seems that you have something left to do?" Fyodor asks, turning towards Nikolai. Nikolai was confused at first, atleast that was until Fyodor took out a knife from his pocket, handing it to Nikolai. Now, it was the perfect opportunity for Nikolai to strike, Fyodor lets out a soft chuckle, before the feeling of the sharp objects stabbed right through him. Before Nikolai realised what he had done, Fyodor was already dead for Nikolai had stabbed him right in the heart... Now he was free! Nikolai was finally free from the chains of feelings and human decency, yet, the bitterness lingers in his body. What was this feeling? Nikolai thought to himself, although he was 'free', the feeling of sorrow and guilt still roam in his body as Nikolai held Fyodor's dead body close to him. "What have I done?.." Nikolai says in a soft sob like tone, realizing that he had killed the only one in the damned of a world who understood him. Nikolai sobbed and sobbed, regretting the decision of following his desires and killing Fyodor. Nikolai begged, hoping that by some miracle, Fyodor would wake up, but he never did.
You were always a weak useless child who had no sense of humanity inside you, using the excuses of escaping so you could justify your actions. All you do is hurt the people around you who actually cares, or rather, cared about you, yet in reality...
Your heart was made from glass, easily with one wrong move, could be shattered into a million pieces...
Author's note: Hello fellow readers! I hope you enjoyed the story, I'm so sorry it took so long to post such a short chapter, as I was mainly focusing on studying for my exams which are tomorrow (after this chapter is posted), thank you so much! If you wish to support me or become moots with me on TikTok, my account is kath.ac4.
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