It's been a few days after I tried and failed to kill my self, professor snape made harry cut whatever needed to be cut I'm not allowed shape things anymore i think it's stupid "so why can't you cut your caterpillar?" Harry asks while he cut my caterpillar "because I tried to kill myself so now I can't hold knifes" harry stops what he's doing "you tried to kill yourself why?" Wow he actually seems concerned "its a long story I'll tell you another time". He finished cutting my caterpillar i thank him and we don't talk for the rest of the lesson.
The day went by fast ever teacher asked me after the lesson was over if i was ok and wanted to talk I said no to them all except for professor lupin I'm gonna have a meeting with him tomorrow.
I was siting in the griffindor common room reading fight club i all ways liked muggle books, I continue to read until harry sits next to me talking to Ron Merlin Ron annoys me sometimes "hey Serena why do you bandages on?" Why would he care probably just asking so he can make fun of me some more "because i do know kindly fuck off" Ron leaves with harry who looks at me sadly.
I finish the chapter i was on and head to bed I'm really fucking tired, i make sure I'm alone before pulling out my handy dandy razor "the day its been i need this" i pull up my sleeve revealing my mostly bandages arm "mmmm where i usually cut its all bandaged up upper arm it is" i cut my arm slowly but deeply a few times "shit" I quickly put a rage on it to stop the bleeding damn gotta wash this shirt now".
After falling asleep i wake up around 11pm "damn" i get up and leave the room to have a midnight stroll i do it quit often I've been caught many times and i have payed dearly. I walk around looking at all the sleeping paintings until i see a light knowing it was probably one of the teachers i stand still with my eyes closed pretending to sleep walk "oi Serena what are you doing up" wasn't a teacher it was harry fucking potter lovely "why are you up what's that" he had some sort of map in his hands it looked weird "oh nothing just a old piece of parchment" he's obviously lying "your a bad lier but really what is it promise I won't tell" he looks at me hesitantly "its a map of hogwarts see" he shows me the map damn it really is "so you saw me getting out of bed?" "Yeah i was confused on were you where going" before i say anything i see a name that was coming towards us Severus snape shit.
