When you look at yourself in the mirror you see the person you don't like but to be honest deep inside there is the one you truly want to be dying to come out. When I look in the mirror I see a girl who has been through it all and has survived it. But when others see me they see perfection well I see the opposite sometimes. Sometimes I see perfection and others I see destruction inside. Before I turned 18 I finally realized who I am, when you look at me you see a girl who is all around perfect and you think that there is nothing wrong with me. But underneath it all I am not perfect by any means I have mental problems but you can't tell unless you get really close to me. But I don't tell anyone because I am afraid that if they know they will stop being my friend. I ask myself all the time why was I given these special gifts. I was in denial about my mental disabilities, I soon came to believe that I did have mental disabilities. One person that has been very influential in my life is Evan he has made me realize that I have problems that a lot of people have but before I met him I really didn't want to believe I had them. I knew that I was having trouble with certain things but I didn't want to admit I was mentally disabled. Once I realized that I was mentally disabled I had to learn all about my mental disabilities that I have. I also came to realize that my parents don't believe I am mentally disabled. They just think that I need to try harder and I will get there, I mean yes I will get there but I need help but I'm not getting it really because they don't believe I need it. I need more help then they realize and there is only a few who think I need more help then I am getting now. If you think I am weird and other names that go along with that then honestly I am what I am.
