This woman must really think I'm crazy like I don't see or hear certain things that's going on I see and hear everything my woman intuition is showing and telling me that her and this woman was never over and here I am believing the dumb shit knowing Ik better me knowing in da back of my mind da shit ain't over it was never over from da moment I even started talking to her and I knew and I still played the fool when I knew I knew better about everything and I still let her inside me my legs mi heart and mi home now I'm dealing with this demon of loving her or letting her go I love her enough to not let her go but I don't love her enough to not do me either /or is she just here until I find my someone and soon as they in my life I leave and be happy but I'll rather be alone then to be putting up with this anyway because Ik it want get no better at all Ik what I got to do it's all about having the strength to leave Ik I can do it it's a lot of things I have over come this is just another obstacle!!!!! I really hate i have a big heart ❤️ some people love it others misuse it / as I go to use the bathroom this was never just a house for the both of them it was a 🏡 a home that they both made it was never any room here for me at all 😕 this woman made me feel like I was the only woman in the world 🌎 she wanted but I should have known better I should have known that she wasn't the one I needed based off the lies and deception from before. Your always wishing and hoping a person will change but my granny always told me believe what a person shows u the 1st time because it want be any different down the line and now that I see that she don't want to change or don't care to I have to move differently I have to live for Laquarshay Mills because nobody else will 💕💕. They always say the heart wants what the heart wants but i really don't crave her like I use to I don't want her like I use to my heart don't even beat that same because of the heartless acts that she put me through and not just one there where multiple things that has my heart the way it is right now I think it's funny how I keep running into the same woman 😟don't get me wrong different people but the same woman, the same person, the same personality, the same heartless acts just the same all the way around I really think that's what my big heart bring to me and I hate it and it hurts. It hurts to know that u can love a person and they not give a shit about u or your life or well being they can tell u all the time they love you or they care and still show you the same shit stains from before but it's up to you to know your worth it's up to u as a person to know that long as u let that person keep hurting you they will forever keep doing it but if u cut off the virus and let it die and move forward your heart ♥️ your mind and body will feel so much better but this thing called love it will leave u dry feeling nothing but pain, hurt, misused, abused, broken and alone, but a long time ago I took that power back everything a woman took from me and turn right around and give it back to another woman who didn't even know she had it hell she didn't even know how valuable what she had was until i just started being crazy but she never did understand why I was so crazy but it wasn't her fault she didn't even know what she had because I never told her she had it but da fact I gave her me she should have already knew but again I never told her so now I look like the crazy person but am i really 🤔
