Obey (Pedro Pascal)

Part 15 - Ms. Johnson

Pedro's POV:

I feel like the days are dragging. For 2 months straight I have been in this slump that I can't seem to climb out of. This girl did something to me - she got into my heart, in my head and just changed me. I should've never of left her... but I did it for her. I couldn't take her whole life away from her. I'm 48, I lived most of my life already, she hasn't - but in my head, I want her back. I want her all to myself. I wonder if she misses me the way I miss her?

Everyday I hope to see her in my lecture but she's never there. Looking up at the desks, always catching my self looking at where she used to sit. Making myself more hurt.

I do get to see her in the halls of the college. I catch a glimpse of her every now and then. I try not letting her see me looking at her, if she even notices me that is. Who even knows is she even cares anymore. I must've destroyed her very being. Fuck. I hate myself.

This is probably going to sound bad really bad but, sometimes I follow her, just making sure she's safe. She doesn't notice me I don't think, but I have to make sure she's alright. Dammit.. I should've  just gotten fired. I don't care, I just wanted to be with her.

After being in my thoughts for too long, something pulls me out of them. A knock on my office door. The knock made me remember the first time Amelia made her way to my office. Teasing, laughing. I shake my head, getting the thoughts out and I open the door.

"Hi Ms. Johnson. You need something?" I ask, really not in the mood.

She asks if she can come in and of course I have no choice but to let her.
She sits down in the chair in front of my desk. Fixing her dress, patting it down.

"I'm here to talk to you is all." She said slightly.

"About?" I question her.

"Erm" Ms. Johnson coughs. "Amelia..."

I turn around, heading towards my chair behind my desk. Why is she bringing Amelia up? What it any of her concern?

Lifting my head up looking at her, I question her.
"There's no need t-" I say before being cut off.

"I was you once." Ms. Johnson says out of no where. She sighs, looking down to the ground, whilst playing with her fingers back and forth.

"What?" I say

"I was you once - I-I fell in love with a student of mine, a couple years back at a different school." She stutters out before speaking again. I let her keep going, trying to not cut her off.

"His name was Jack. 25 years younger, just like you and Amelia. It was out of no where to be honest. We just... clicked. We clicked so well, we started seeing each other more and more, hiding our love for each other." She continues, while I just sit quietly listening.

"Obviously, it didn't stay hidden for too long. Some other student of mine caught us being affectionate towards each other and yeah... the rest is history. I had to get transferred to a different school.... He obviously graduated college and that was the end. Never to see each other again." That's all she said. She looked up at me waiting for me to reply.

I'm shocked. I never would have expected Ms. Johnson to have gone though something that I'm going through right now. Really, I thought she had some sort of attraction towards me? Maybe I was wrong.

I stand up, and walk towards her, sitting on the chair next to hers.

"Wow Ms. Johnson... I uh, had no idea. I'm so sorry." I apologize sincerely. She gave me a soft smile, and shook her head.

"Jack got taken away from me but that doesn't have to be that way for you." She states. Confused I look at her with my head tilted to the side.

"Don't be like me and just run away. If you really love that girl, go get her. Don't shy away or you'll regret it. Take it from me. I regret my decision every single day." My heart shattered at the thought of me and Amelia being apart forever, never to find our way back.

I put my hand on Ms. Johnson's shoulder and pulled her in for a hug.

"Thank you so much for telling me this... I'm going to go get Amelia. She's mine. And she will always be." I stop talking for a minute and smile.

"Maybe you should give that Jack of yours a call. It might not be too late for you." I ask her hoping she will.

She laughs and looks down.

"I'm afraid my time is done. He's married now, to a beautiful young woman. My time will come eventually."

It made me sad to think that the love of her life moved on. The only thing that was taking over my mind was Amelia - and one more thing.

I step to my office door, getting ready to leave and go find Amelia but I had one more question to ask.

I turn to Ms. Johnson. "Wait... so I guess I was wrong when I thought you were flirting with me a couple months ago."

She laughed and shook her head.

"No Mr. Pascal. You're a nice man, and you're very handsome but i only have eyes for one man." And that is all she said. She patted me on my shoulder leaving my office, as I did also.

I straighten my shirt, took a deep breath and got
ready to go get the love of my life - I'm coming Amelia.

I get to my car, put the key in the ignition. Right before I turn the key, my anxiety takes over.

Are you sure she'll take you back after what you did? Maybe she's over you. She's probably with someone new. You broke her heart to bad, it'll never work. You're wasting your time.

I shake the anxiety out of my head, twist the key, and head out to find my girl.