Hidden feelings (JoshxMully)

The beginning

Josh's POV:

All of the boys were chilling in the loungeroom at Narrator's house. I was laying in-between my boyfriend Gaege's legs as he ran his hand through my hair. We were all discussing ideas for our next group video. 

"We could do another hot sauce video." Eddie suggested and I nodded my head since we had no other ideas.

"Why not? Not gonna kill anybody." I replied as I shrugged my shoulders. I looked around the room, but my eyes rested on Mully as he shook his head, looking straight back at me. 

"Yeah, but it will put us through a hell of pain." Mully stated and I quietly chuckled as I looked at him with a small grin on my face. 

"But we'd do anything to keep the fans entertained." I replied and Mully rolled his eyes before looking back at me with a small smile on his face. We stared right into each other's eyes and my heart rate began to quicken so I looked back up at Gaege. 

"Gaege and I better get going. We'll see you guys in a few days to record." I said as I stood up and pulled Gaege up with me. He wrapped an arm around my waist while we smiled at the rest of the boys.

"See you guys soon. Don't get into too much trouble." Narrator replied as he winked at us. We both laughed as we waved at them one last time before leaving the room and heading for the front door.

Mully's POV:

I watched as Gaege and Josh walked out of the room and let out a deep sigh. It was becoming harder to hang out with all of the boys as I watched the love of my life with someone else. He had made it very clear we were just friends, but I loved Josh more than that. I longed to hold him in my arms and tell him how much he meant to me. 

"Hey Mully, are you alright?" Narrator asked breaking through my thoughts. I looked up at him and nodded my head.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I replied and Narrator crosses his arms and gave me a hard stare before looking over at Eddie for back up. 

"Are you sure? Your eyes are all watery." Eddie said with concern, and I quickly wiped both my eyes. I then looked back up at him and gave him a reassuring smile.

"Really, I'm fine. I just got something in my eye." I replied while quietly chuckling to myself. Eddie and Narrator quickly glanced at each other before looking back at me. Narrator sighed before standing up. 

"I'm going to go make some coffees. I'll be right back." Narrator said before walking out of the room. I looked up at Eddie and smiled before pulling my phone out of my pocket. 

I turned it on and looked at my lock screen and smiled. It was a picture of me and Josh that Alana had taken for us last year on my birthday. It was a month before Josh and Gaege had started dating and since then he only hanged out alone with me once a month. It hurt me to see him moving on. 

"Mully! What's wrong?" Eddie asked worried as he quickly got up and rushed over to my side. He wrapped an arm around my shoulder as he brought his hand up to my face and gently wiped away my tears. 

"Oh, uh, nothing. Um, I'm gonna head home. Let Narrator know I apologize for leaving early." I replied as I abruptly stood up before quickly leaving. 

Narrator's POV: 

I walked into the loungeroom with two cups of coffee in my hands and another one in the kitchen. I saw Eddie on his phone looking at something but there was no sign of Mully anywhere. I placed the cups on the coffee table and stood in front of Eddie. 

"Where's Mully?" I asked and Eddie looked up at me with his phone still in his hand. He quickly glanced at the cups as he sighed. 

"He went home, he said his sorry for leaving early." Eddie replied as he placed his phone down on the couch beside him. I sighed as I picked up one of the cups and took a sip. 

"It's okay, we'll just talk to each other." I replied and Eddie looked at me with a guilty look on his face. He picked up the other coffee and took a sip. 

"Sorry but I've got somewhere to be." Eddie replied and I sighed as I planted myself on the couch beside him. He finished his coffee before quickly standing up and leaving. I sighed as I took another sip of my coffee. I already knew he was going home to meet someone to do some dirty stuff. I sighed as I placed my cup of the coffee table. 

There was something I really needed to tell Josh and as much as it would hurt to see his reaction, I'm a terrible friend if I don't. If he ever did find out about this little secret and then found out I knew about it, he would hate me. I guess I'll tell him tomorrow, I have other things to do right now. 

Josh's POV:

I was lying on my bed in mine and Gaege's room as I scrolled on social media when Gaege suddenly burst into the room with his phone in his hand. I looked up at him with a small smile on my face. 

"Hey Babe, I'm going to Eddie's house for a bit. I'll be back later." Gaege said and I nodded my head as I smiled at him. 

"Alright, see you later." I replied and he quickly left the room without giving me a kiss. I was probably being overdramatic, but it felt like Gaege didn't actually love me even though he was the one that had asked me out. Even though I had feelings for someone else at the time and I still do. 

Last year on Valentines Day Gaege had asked me to be his boyfriend and I had only accepted so I could get over my feelings for someone else, but it never worked. I still had deep feelings for this person, and it felt wrong to date Gaege when I didn't truly love him. I was using him but at the same time I did have small feelings for him. But my heart already belonged to this other person. 

I sighed as I turned my phone off and slipped it into my pocket before standing up and going downstairs to the kitchen to get some food. I searched the pantry and grabbed a packet of tiny teddies before going to the couch and sitting down. I opened the packet and began to eat them as I heard a notification on my phone. I took it out of my pocket and turned it on. 

Narrator: Hey Josh! Can you come to my house tomorrow? I have something important I need to tell you. 

Josh: Why can't you just tell me it now?

Narrator: It'd just be better to tell you in person. 

Josh: Alright, I'll be there at 10.

Narrator: Thanks Josh. See you tomorrow. 

I turned my phone off and slipped it back into my pocket, I wonder what Narrator needed to tell me that was so important. He probably just needed some help with his set up or something small like that. He made everything seem like a big deal. I continued to eat my teddies as I turned on the TV and began watching 9-1-1 lone star. 

Mully's POV:

I placed my phone on the bench as I let out a frustrated sigh. I had been arguing with myself if I should text Josh or not. Even though we were both YouTubers and in the same YouTube group and best friends, we barely even texted each other. Before him and Gaege had started dating, we had texted each other every single day. I miss that. 

I sighed as I wiped a tear away from my eye and walked over to the loungeroom and plonked down onto the couch. Where had I gone wrong to make Josh not want to talk to me anymore? I didn't understand why we had lost touch all of a sudden. We still recorded videos together every now and then, but it wasn't the same. 

I got back up and grabbed two pieces of bread out and made a sandwich. I quickly ate it before going upstairs and lying in my bed. I stared up at the ceiling as I thought about life. I just wish Josh would talk to me more, I missed spending time with him. I felt like a piece of me was missing without him. 

I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I closed my eyes and took a deep shaky breath. I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep as tears continued to roll down my cheeks. I wanted Josh back.