Curvy Black Girls & White Boys

Still Love Him

Alex was late and I was going to break his neck if he didnt hurry up. I was hot and just wanted to get out the sun. I was to big  and hot for this. Then I saw Alex's car  he said ,"Hey baby."  I walked on the other side of the car and said,"Why the hell are you a hour late? 
Alex was a white boy with a high top hair cut. He was skinny but he worked out a lot. You probably do not know this yet, but he is my boyfriend and we have been dating since sophomore year. I love him but he has a very bad temper. "Why you playing baby? I got stuck in traffic," he said. He leaned in for me to kiss him.

I kissed him because he is the only one who likes me and that matters to me. I mean, I'm a big girl. I got a small stomach but big hip, butt, and some stretch marks. For some reason, I feel like that is all he likes about me.

(He interrupted my thoughts.)

"So where do you wanna eat?" "Um im not that hungry baby," I said.
"Yes you are you are always hungry," he said.  I looked at him.
"Im sorry, baby. I didn't mean it like that"
"Ooh you didn't. You always say you don't mean it, but  you keep saying it.

Alex POV

I really love Mahogany. She stays with me even though I have a temper problem. One day, I was kind of late to pick her up. I tell her "Hey baby!" and she says, "Where the hell were you at?!" I told her  I was in traffic. I know that was a lie. I was out drug dealing with my gang. She hates it when I go deal drugs. To be honest, I don't care what she thinks about me. Don't get me wrong, she's a pretty girl, but..... she got a temper, too. I just dont want her to leave me over that so I lie to her.

End of Alex POV ( point of view)

"Baby, you know I love you," Alex said. I looked at him. He always tries to sugar coat the stuff he says and I hate that.  I told him just to drive me home so he said "ok" but  I fell asleep while he was driving, bad mistake because when I woke up I was at this warehouse with the Windows covered and  like twenty cars parked around it. I knew where I was at and I was so pissed at Alex because he knows that I don't want him to deal with no drugs  Omg I say to myself why the fuck do I even bother to stay with him. Thats when my phone rings  "hello"  Alex  "oh hey baby  didn't know you woke up already ill come out and take you somewhere out to eat or where ever you want to go"   No Alex take me home because I know exactly what you are doing and I hate that shit  you know that ( I hung up)

  Alex POV

I saw mahogany fast asleep  in the car, so I thought I could go and see  my niggas at the warehouse.  I stop by for a minute or so  I get out the car and knock on the door in a different  way that shows  that I am one of them.

I walk in and I dap my boys up  so what is new,Quan (opened the door)  "heres the map  of the trap house that were going to get the dope from".  I said ok so how's this plain going to work but before he could tell me I thought about mahogany   and had to make sure she  was alright ( I held my hand up at  Quan) wait a minute I gotta call someone.

(Phone rings mahogany answer)

I say "hey baby" then she went off on me and I knew she was going to do it so  I   made sure she got thru talking and told her ok  (I hung up the phone)   and told my boys I got to go and I walked out.

End of Alex POV

I see Alex come to the car, he opens the door and said " sorry baby I had to handle some business" whatever I said what business  all you do is deal drugs and shit!! (I got cut off by Alex) "first of all low your GOD DAMN  TONE AT ME  don't play with me ok! I do this shit so im straight and you straight and my family".

   Listen here dont tell me to lower my voice I can do what the hell I wanna do ok!.  (Alex looked at me for a while)  "Let me hurry up and take you home before I have to spazz  out on a bitch"   Ok so  im a bitch now last time I checked I don't walk on four legs and I show as hell don't bark  so im not a bitch.

Alex and I was quiet during the hole ride, I get to my house and  Alex gets out the car and opens the door for me. Thank you I smiled, I could tell he was still kind of pissed but   he still walked me to the front door

"Can I come and spend the night"
He asked  I turned and looked at him yea sure. My father died and my mom was never home  she comes on Sundays sometimes to check on me so I knew it would be ok for him to stay.

"Good"  Alex said because I already had my clothes in the trunk of the car (we both laughed)
  I open the door to the house and turn on the lights Alex came up behind me kissing my neck,  I loved it but I didnt want him to know that so I told him to stop and lightly pushed him. I got to go take a shower I told him (he looked me up and down licking his lips) he said  "thats fine ill wait here for you on your bed"

(I smiled) and went to go take a shower, I got my shorts and my purple tink top that showed most of my boobs. I went into the shower and washed up and then dryed up, brushed my teeth and made sure  I smelled good.
I walked out of the bathroom and saw  Alex on the bed fast asleep   "yea right" he was not about to stay awake for me.

I walked to the bed and layed my head on him he opened his eyes and got up  "sorry baby" (I cut him off) no shh you need some rest. He said "no baby I need you" he starts to put his hand down my shorts  No I said moving it baby lets just go to sleep ok  he rolled his eyes and said whatever and rolled over.

I try to put my arm around him again he said "Take your stretch mark arm off of me fucking fat ass" I  began to cry because I am very insecure about that and my weight.  Alex looked at me he rolled his eyes and
went back to sleep. Whenever Alex never gets what he wants he gets mad  and gets a temper.