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Hello loves uhm this is not a chapter sorry I just wanted to ask about something about friendship this is more like a vent hehe sorry

So like uhm apparently I have a bestfriend for like around 5-6 years and we ARE the most toxic person in the friendship since like I never actually want to tell her anything abt my secret this year but I've always gather the courage to tell her but she never tell me shits about her(sorry yu) and uhm whenever I talk abt something in a gc like I try my best not to hurt her or smth it js turns into a convo that hurts me like uhm today she sent an image about her taking a test from online and it says that she doesn't want her self image to be ruined and uhm

I told her that I didn't wanted to hurt her bc I wanted to say SMTH so like I js didn't say it then she started to say

"Just say it" "it's annoying" then I said like uhm

And yes I did told people abt her ed yes I'm a bad person ik but I js wanted to tell people abt it to make sure she's eating enough

And I have never had joked abt her bulimia I HAVE NEVER JOKED ABT IT IN MY MEMORY..like omg she always talks about like how I joked about her insecurities but I never did plus I might overthink and convinced myself I did so I apologized I am so not sure if I ever joked abt it hallucinating has gotten into me and shits since i had hallucinating n day dreaming as my habit since I was younger

I have never actually wanted to argue w her I love her she's my fp but like lately I don't even think I can trust her no more it's just that she's not by my side when yk idk how to describe plus at school I can feel like some how distance like for example uhm around last last Thursday or Friday idk all of the high grades students had to go to the hall bc there's a artist that is supposedly to teach us art and like wtv and she was like talking to this one girl k for short and she is like almost always talking to her in the hall 24/7 whenever I try to tell her SMTH she's just already talking to her so like I js ignore it then bc she kept talking to that girl when the artist is teaching

So like I had a friend infront of me so I just talked with her while me and her was coloring around ya know so did my best friend with K I have uhm been big and small and whatever I did to try to change for her and when I tried to ask her to borrow me color pencils yeah she agreed but like the second time I needed to actually color I asked her for permission she was like giving me uhm a playful annoyish'd tone "huhhh but I already borrowed K" like uhm alright ig.??? I have never ask her to open up again bc there was this one time I tried to comfort her abt opening up and all then she started uhm blaming me bc the last time and the first time she opened up to me she said the next day I was making fun of her but like we were js 8-9 y/o then I was literally so sad and guilty because I knew she had trust issues but like yk she treats me different from other people

Uhm and like I like to slap her ass(don't shame pls) sometimes and of course I accepted that she would smack me back but sometimes her slapping me because she's mad at me for no reason is just not it:(

There was like two time the one time was that at class someone provoked her and she slapped her and made her glasses flew away almost breaking her glasses and when I tried to ask her what's wrong she just slapped me without no reason and another time was that we were at the canteen waiting then idk what I said to her probably smth bad and uhm she kinda just slapped me and hit me and I had to joke abt it cause I couldn't just break down right? I have never told her that I was a crybaby since I was younger I never actually wanted to be weak since I kinda influenced her the first time we met I was more of a uhmmmmm rude mean but kinda soft hearted confident and likes to curse a lot that's what I know

She's not really that kind of person that would brag about me lol

(I add lol/lmao/lmfao whenever I'm down,upset mad whatsoever)