The water is warm and it feels good. Today was hard I'm just glad it's summer no getting up early for school. No worrying about homework. No late night studying for finals. It's over and so is my final year of high school. Until a week when collage starts.
Maybe in collage I'll get a fresh start. A new beginning. Maybe I wouldn't be the girl who everyone hates. Who everyone pushes in the hallways. Knocks my books down. Calls me names as I walk by.
At one point everything got so bad I just wanted to end it I was about to slit my wrist when I realized what do I care what they think. I thought of my parents how they would react. I put the blade down once and for all and I haven't cut again.
I finish my shower and crawl into bed its been a long day and I need sleep.
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Its raining this morning. No bother in doing any outside stuff. My arms ache I wanna stay in bed but I can't. I gotta go wake my dad for his pills.
"Hey dad get up!" I shout threw the house. After 5 minutes of no responce I go to his room. "Hey dad get up it's already lik.." I turn to look in his room he's not there. Its not like him to get up early and leave. I brush it off he's always been unpredictable.
After breakfast I have nothing better to do then ride my bike around so I go to the store get some gum, and get the mail. Oh it's going to be a long week until I leave.
By the time I get back home I find a note with my name on it.
**Alaska,
I will not be home till later don't worrie about me. I'm on a long delivery I forgot about and my phone died so if you need anything call the neighbors.
Love dad
Oh well he'll be home later I think to me self. He's never around anymore it's kinda weird. I don't think more of it and plop on the coach and watch some tv.
