At my young age I fooled myself with believing that I've found the one, that one person that a second couldn't pass without him crossing my mind. The one person I believed was the source of my happiness, well then he was. Because at that time I was at a point where I believed my life was really not worth it. At a point where suicidal thoughts would cross my mind from time to time. At a point where I thought I had no friends and he came about and that's when he seemed to be everything to me. At that young age I thought to myself, "he will father my offsprings" I mean I was really convinced he was gonna travel the whole life journey with me. Then, as I pictured my future, every corner of it, his name was written all over it. I thought there was no way I was gonna live without him, there was no way I was gonna love another man, and he would say the same thing. He told me how special I was, how different and unique he saw me. He would say, "I've never felt like this for any other person but you". That phrase would leave my blood rushing through out every vein my body possesses and my heart thumping hard. We promised each other forever. He was mine and I was his, like I was the Yin to his Yung. I felt like I had my whole life figured out. I was content and at peace. Communication was good, and it was good waking up to a beautiful morning text or to his beautiful voice. Just seeing him coming from far would make my stomach churn, and butterflies would fill it. His presence felt like an angel's. He made me aware of my feminine self. Small things I never cared about when it comes to being a woman, I started paying attention to them. Whenever I was sad I would talk to him just to ease the situation, sometimes he wouldn't even notice am sad or that him being around is filling an empty void within me. I wanted to do everything with him, sometimes some choices I would make were for him. I felt complete, blessed and just out of the mix. Little did I know that things could change out of the blue and sometimes the roads that we take lead us to dead ends. This leave us with challenges of having to find other paths that will be different definitions to our lives and we face huge changes, different glows, growth and much more beautiful things that life can offer.
