After dating for a long time we broke up.(I was grounded and mentally n okay and I acted bland and replied short texts)
This break up was like a month ago.
and now he's dating someone..
This just makes me think he was speaking to that someone while I was with him.
When we broke up.
Well when he broke up with me.
I was in some shock for a few days I just answered like "oh okay I understand "
But a few days later I kinda just started corrupting.
I un added him and he tried to send a request but I canceled it because I preferred him to forget me.
But now I see,
I wish he didn't forget me like that.
He quite littearly forgot me and moved on.
After I stopped talking with him and more things went downhill.
I started skipping
People tried to influence drugs on
me but I refused.
I took some things.
I stopped taking care of myself as much
He has me lost.
I wonder...
Are we still friends?
Can we be friends?
He says we are friends.
But this doesn't feel like friends.
If he wanted me for so long how come he let me go so easily ?
Maybe.
It was my fault.
I didn't try hard enough
Why.
I got
Grounded;
Screamed at
Taken liberty
Lost of trust
Hate for my own care givers
All for him and I made it crumble
Maybe I was
To selfish?
Or self centered?
An asshole?
Big attitude?
Maybe I didn't give enough.
Always the fool, always.
