The one that got away

My first love

Park Jimin. A name that shocks me till this day. I can't imagine what my love life would be without him. I loved him. Loved. Past tense.

My first day of college I was met with the person I never thought would be the love of my life. He's the last person I thought I would fall in love with. After all, I'm a l/n. They are supposed to know who they are and handle no foolishness. But Jimin, "fool" was his name.

Talking back, fighting , cussing , flirting , being a perv, playing with girls hearts, everything that he did made him a "awful student. Rightfully so. He was popular and known as the class clown. Me on the other hand could not ever do that. Not with how you were raised. Loving, respectful, teacher loving, controlling, hopeless romantic was what i was. Never who you wanted to be though.
How did I fall in love with him? Good question! It all started in sophomore year.

"Jimin! You need to do your work and quit flirting!" Mrs. Kim said. Jimin looked at her and said "you need to brush your teeth and stop thinking gum always works! Your just mad no one wants to flirt with you!" Jimin said and everyone laughed. "That is it! I had enough of you! You will attend detention!" Those we're the usual words that came out of Mrs. Kim mouth. Always "detention" but it never bothered anyone. Especially the Park Jimin. "Ahh! Detention! Again!" Jimin said acting scared and everyone laughed again.

I couldn't tell if everyone was laughing because what he says is actually funny or if they are all just dick/pussy whipped for Jimin. "Why can't you all be like her?" She points her long ruler at me. Everyone is turning their heads at me now. Shit. "Because we aren't her. You know for you to be our language teacher, you sure don't know what different personalities mean." Jimin says again. That was kind of funny, I laughed a bit and Jimin noticed. "You think this is funny?!" Mrs. Kim asked me.

"No ma'am" you said. "You all just venerate this man huh?" Mrs. Kim added. "Detention for you and you." She pointed at me and Jimin. We both had a sigh. I was sighing because this would be my first time getting detention. Jimin sighed because this is the format time he was getting in detention.. with his crush.

(In detention) I was mostly doing work, that was until I saw a note from Jimin was passed to me. It said "I'm sorry your in here."
I passed a note back that said "why?"
"You don't deserve this"
"How do you know that?"
"Because of the way you act"
I looked at him and he was angelic
I didn't want to fall for him, but that was really hard when he looked like he was delivered from the angels.

And there I fell in love. He did as well. When detention was over, Jimin took his backpack and walked up to me. "Hey, I'm bout to head upstairs and study, did you want to get pizza?" I smiled. When I got in his truck, I use to not know why they use to say Jimin was a  Good time, but I knew now. He turned up some music and drove a bit faster. Jeeps were my favorite cars, and I knew I would be buying this car.

"How do you feel?" Jimin asked looking my way. "This actually feels pretty good." I said. "My dad never really wanted me to have fun. He always thought everything needed to be serious, and if you weren't, you were a fool." I opened up to him. He looked at me with pity "I'm sorry to hear that. I send my condolences to you." Jimin said. "I dont need it. I'm away from him now."

Jimin smiled and stopped at the pizza place. After us getting out pizza, we went back to the dorm and started studying. Or, at least I was, Jimin on the other hand was mostly looking at me and eating pizza, or on his phone eating pizza. "Did you really bring me here to study?" I asked him. "Nope. I just needed an excuse to get you in my dorm."

I roll my eyes and close the book I was carefully studying. "What about you? I never got to hear your story." I told him. "Me? Well, Park Jimin is a very smart man. College wasn't my choice, but I was the only person in my family who was even invited by so many colleges. So that's how I'm here." He said. "We're you always a class clown?" I asked. He laughed and said "from 1st grade till now. I think I was the class clown because everyone took life so seriously."

"Like think about it, when I was in the 5th grade I never made a B ever. So everyone constantly said "you need to start thinking about colleges" but I didn't want to. Life is supposed to be fun! Not a constant schedule."
He opened to me. I sat up and was breathe taken. "Wow. That's... wow." Jimin starts laughing.

"I've never met a class clown that is actually smart." I said to him. "Seriously? I'm your first?" Jimin asked. I nodded my head and he smiled. He then got close to me and kissed me. "I-I'm sorry" he pulled away. "I don't know what came over me I-" I cutted him off by kissing him back. I rolled on top of him and he grabbed my thighs. "Your so fucking pretty" he said in between the kiss.

Flashbacks from him start to appear. This is the same bed he brought multiple girls in just so he wouldn't remember their name the next day. I pull away and look up at the ceiling. I start to think of why I even kissed him back, why am I in his dorm right now? He's just gonna be into me now, but when tomorrow comes he's gonna make me look fucking stupid in front of his friends.

"I'm sorry, who are you?"
"We had sex? I couldn't tell"
"Wait, you thought I wanted to get with you?"
"I don't love you, I love your body though"
"Your gonna have to put that mouth on pause so I concentrate"
All the things he said to the girls
He played, fucking ridiculous. Yet I'm the one pussy whipped for him right now. I can't keep doing this. Am I this desperate?

"Are you okay? We can stop if you want." He said. "Jimin.. I can't. I'm sorry" I was about to get up but he pushed me down by hips. "W-why? What's wrong?" He asked in the most gentle voice. "You've been with so many women. How do I know your not just trying to play me too?" I asked him.

"I only fucked with them to get your attention." He told me. "Is that what you say to every girl?"
"Look I'm not proud of playing girls. But I only did it to get your attention. Why do you think the word always came to you? Or my friends always coming up and asking you questions about who'd you date? That was all me. I'd fuck girls to get your attention, or to blow off some steam thinking about you. But you we're never not a thought in my mind." Jimin told me.

"Am I supposed to just believe you?" I asked him. "What would make you believe me?" Jimin asked me. "Show me you actually love me. Not my body, or my sex. You love me and who I am." He took me off his lap. "Y/n, I don't know how to explain this. I've loved you from the first day, your quiet personality always made me more curious about you. At first, you were a real mystery but now, I can read you like a book. I love you y/n, I love you."

Though he know he could say that just say that but you were don't playing hard to get. I he ignored you the next day, I'd just ignore him back. I went in and kissed him and this time, he was soft and passionate. He pulled you in by the waist made you sit on his lap again. "I love you so much." He kept saying to me. Even if he didn't mean it, he was good at pretending he did though.