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episode 5

So, after I found out that Michael was talking to another girl at the same time, I was just chilling from boys, you know? Like, I needed a break. I didn't start talking to another boy until April. But, here is where things went downhill for a bit.
A few days before my junior prom, two guys followed me on instagram at the same time. They were in my third period with me (plus the other guy) and I knew they were friends so I was a bit suspicious. Like it's not much of a coincidence two friends requested my account minutes apart.
Well anyways, my friend Rowan, added me into a group chat with the boys named Josh, Bowen, Landon, and Nathan. They were trying to get Nathan to ask me how to prom, but of course I had to hype him up. Wish I would've never done that. I went to prom with him and it was fun. The whole group, plus another girl, took a limo from and to prom. After prom we went back to Landon's house where we chilled in the hot tub and swam in the pool. Me and Nathan were all on each other in the hot tub, which is like one of the greatest mistakes of my entire life. When we left, we went to his house for a change of clothes and our plan was to go back to Landon's house but that didn't go according to plan.
We winded up going to Waffle House and a few other places, but we were at Waffle House until like 6 am which I wasn't supposed to be. We made out and stuff, but I didn't lose my virginity to him there.
We started talking and hanging out, and things escalated. When he asked me to go to his house, I stayed there for a while and we watched movies, and when he was dropping me off, we went down my road and that's where I lost my virginity. In a car down the road from my house. I feel so stupid but I was so into it you know, like I just let him take it. Don't make my mistake and don't do that. No matter how horny you get, if you feel it's rushed, if you feel pressured in some type of way, don't do it.
We didn't start "dating" until after it, and the way it started was so stupid like I believe we were on the phone with Landon or someone and he was like "Ask her to be your girlfriend" and so he literally asked me in his car to be his girlfriend while we were leaving school. It was so stupid.
I'm not saying from the beginning things were bad with him but it eventually got to it. I got into so much drama with 3 different girls because of him, and we were all cool with each other before I went to prom with him and started dating him. I'm not going into the full back story, but there were 3 girls, Emily, Greenleigh, and Madi. Him and Emily dated for a year or so, on and off. He fucked her up too. Me and Emily weren't besties, but we were friends. Mutual companions. He messed us up pretty and got me sent up to the Ros office at school or whatever because Emily thought I was planning on fighting her, which I told her from the start I didn't wanna fight over a boy but things escalated. Greenleigh texted Nathan saying she was pregnant with his baby, while we were dating, and he denied it and then said that it was a joke. Like that's not a funny joke but you do you girl! The next girl, Madi, claims her and Nathan dated for two years. Timeline doesn't add up but I do feel like they did date for a bit. He fucked her up pretty bad too. Madi was always trying to break us up too and that's what contributed to me breaking up with Nathan. Even my friends, my best friends, from the start told me. And I was too stubborn and wanted to "change him" but I learned my lesson. Always listen to your best friends. I wouldn't have left if it wasn't for them.
Back to what happened, though. So, me and Nathan stayed arguing over nothing. I texted Micah, my close gay friend, saying that there has to be some truth to what all three girls were saying about Nathan, and Nathan had snatched my phone out of my hand during 3rd period and read it all. So, yet again we were arguing. I felt stupid so I apologized even though I wasn't in the wrong. He moved lunch tables so I just stayed where I was because I didn't want to deal with it anymore. Turns out he had called Landon, and was saying how he wishes i would just listen to my first period besties (the friends I was talking about earlier. My best friends) and leave him alone and saying that I'm an annoying bitch. So, later on that day, after school had let out for the day, I texted him saying, "since I'm an annoying bitch and you wish I would listen to my first period besties, we're done." He texted me and was like "meet me in my car" so I was planning on it because I wanted to hear what he had to say, but before I could get to his car, he sped off so I was like okay fuck that. Excuse my French in this chapter, he just angers me. So yeah, I end things with him and I was with Landon, Josh, and Bowen in Landon's truck and he had called Landon saying "great going, you got my girlfriend to break up with me. Fuck that, I'm staying single forever. I'm gonna go wrap my car around a tree now." Like boy puhlease!!!!
After things were officially over, he had moved back to our table, the one he had moved from, and he kept on eavesdropping. He told someone that we are mutual friends with, that he was dating a lesbo, referring to me, because I was learning to kiss like 2 years before, while he was with Emily, and it was with a girl. He made a big deal about it, and it was so stupid. Let me tell y'all what else!! He always was like "it's the 1920's, you have no rights." "You obey me." "You listen to me while I talk." "You're a woman, you have no opinion/rights to talk." "Talk to me when you're spoken to." And just a bunch of shit, it contributed onto me ending things. I was more miserable with him than I was happy. One time, he was like "Titty pics?" And I was like "you won't even kiss me anymore." And he was like "So, does that mean if I kiss you, I can get some?" Like DIEEEE. I never sent any. I regret ever going with him, and losing my virginity to him, but it taught me a valuable lesson. Don't rush into things. Don't rush to lose your virginity. It doesn't make you feel more complete or more wanted.