To swear by the Hammer and Sickle

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I hummed as I skipped beside Russia. It was peaceful. "Hey, Ruski?" I mumble, leaning against his side as his arm wrapped around me. "Да?" He glanced at me, he seemed exhausted.

"If North Had actually r@ped me what would it have felt like?" I watched as his once silver eye seemed to have a cloudy Gray color and his more artic blue eye seemed to take a darker color as well.

"You actually wanna know?" He seemed slightly annoyed, maybe this was a bad Idea. "Yes." I felt my confidence drain as He hesitated. "It would hurt...it would feel like your insides are being torn you would likley feel trapped, you'd have no say..." he stopped.

"Sorry I didn't mean to make you upset. Is it really that bad though or is it basically horrible sex?" I start messing with my jacket strings. "Bad sex is a light  way to put it, if you feel better saying that, go ahead. Meri, are you worried it'll happen again?" He stopped and made me face him.

Yes.  I'm terrified but I don't wanna say anything. Russia just looked at me. "You are aren't you?" He pulled me into a bear hug and My legs failed to hold me up as I crumble into him. He just sighs, picking me up and walking me to a nearby park. I must've been crying cause his sleeve was slighty damp.

"I-I'm sorry  you h-have to deal with m-me." I mumble. "And I'm sorry my problems bled into you." He whispers as  I see a tear fall down. He's crying? "I didn't mean to make you-" he kissed me it was soft and I felt all my pain leave the second his lips connected with mine.

"I love you Meri, I love being here when you need it, I love your vulnerability, I love your determination, I love every single one of your flaws. I love YOU. Stop trying to make me second guess it's not gonna work. You are the one person I trust completely I know it doesn't seem like it but it's true." Russia said holding me close to him.

"Thank you." I whisper. "Anytime, and in case you already forgot. I love you!" He poked my cheek and I giggled. "Still scared?" He asked, kissing my cheek. "No, I feel better thankfully." I mumble, messing with his Hoodie's strings.

"Wanna see if it fits you?" He asked, slowly sliding his hoodie off. "Mhmn!" I snatch it pulling it over. The sleeves went past my hands and the waistband acted like a dress. "You look cute." He kissed me carefully pulling close to him.

"Teddy bear it is." I snicker. He stopped. "Why that outta all the nicknames you think of?" He groaned leaning his head against my neck and shoulder. "Wasn't your sacred animal like a bear or something?" I glance at him. "Yeah, not a teddy bear." He tilted his head up to look at me.

"I don't care you act very much like a teddy bear, you are so fluffing cuddly!" I smile as he laughs slightly. "Fine you win bird boy." "He-" he kissed me quickly. "Come on, let's head back to your place we've been out a while." Russia carefully got up and held his hand out for me.

"Birdboy seriously?!" "That or birdbrain you pick." Russia had a sly smirk on his face and for some reason my flirting self wasn't kicking in, I'll get back at him later. "Asshole." "Very funny lets go."

A/N short chapter im a tad busy💜🖤