Will it ever stop? | JJ Maybanks

A new boy

Y/Ns POV

I woke up really late. I look around and see that I'm asleep on the couch. I look around to see nobody. I go to my bedroom, nobody. Uhm well.. I see a note at the door saying "thanks for letting us stay! See you tonight. -John B, Kie, Pope and JJ."

Great. I was all alone at home again. The sun is shining and the weather is really hot so I decide to go swimming at the beach. I put on my bikini and wear short and a top over it. As I put on my stuff I see the picture of us. My family. Where everything used to be perfect. We all were happy. I shake my thought off getting emotional again.

You can't change anything. Accept it and move on. I go outside and walk to the beach. I didn't really bring anything with me except my phone but I don't have internet outside. I sit down relaxing my mind for a bit. 6 months ago I always had people around me. Friends, family.. even the people I hated the most. I miss them all. But can you call them friends after they leave you because you've turned into a pogue?

It's not like I wanted this right. Nobody was on the beach except for me. I will be going though a boring shitty summer then. I take off my clothes and get into the sea. I wet my hair and just enjoy the moment. Later on I see boys surfing on their surfboards. One dude just fell off and I can't help but laugh. I get out of the water and just look at them.

They seem to have fun but the boy that fell down seemed to notice my staring and got out of the sea walking up to me. He approaches me and speaks "hey.. do you want to join? I've seen you watch us for like 10 minutes or sum" "I.. I don't know how to surf actually." I admit as he chuckles "it's fine, I can teach you. I was getting bored anyway." He smiles. He is cute tbh. "But don't laugh at me, aight?" I say as we walk back at the water. He nods "yes m'am" he sticks up two fingers above his head, acting like a soldier. I laugh.

After a while of laughing and falling off we decide it's time to go home again. "I mean you got better..!" He tries to assure me. "I fell off like 50 times man!" I say pushing his chest jokingly. He just stares at me smiling. "Hey I never got your name.." he says suddenly. "Its Y/N." "I'm Sebastian but please call me Seb." He says jokingly pleading me. He was the first person that wanted to talk to me after these months.

"So are you that Y/N girl that changed from kook to pogue..?" He asks obviously not wanting it to come out as disrespectful. I nod and stay quiet. He seems to notice and quickly changes the topic. "You know, I live right next to that ugly clothing store. You know.. the one that sells-" i cut him off by saying "yeah I know, I know" i say chuckling. "... and I live right there." I say pointing at a house infront of us. We stop infront of eachother.

"It was nice meeting you, Y/N" he says showing me his cute smile again. "Nice meeting you to, Sebastian." I say his full name to get a reaction out of him but I burst out laughing seeing his annoyed face. But he soon laughs with me. "I hope we could meet eachother again" he says. I nod "a 100%!" I say happily. We both say our goodbye's and I walk back into my house smiling.

"Had fun with your other boyfriend?" I hear as soon as I step into the house. I look up to see JJ. "He's not my boyfriend and what do you mean by 'other'?" I say now looking at him and closing the door behind me. He shrugs and walks away where the others were sitting. "Where were you guys?" I ask all of them. They told me the same stuff they did yesterday, about a royal merchant. I don't really believe it. If it's that old why didn't anyone find it before. I just nod and wait for them to talk about something else.

It gets late again and everyone goes to sleep in my bedroom. Me laying on my bed and them sleeping on the mattress on the floor. I don't really like the silence since it makes me think about stuff I don't really want to think about. So I stand up trying to be as quiet as possible and go out to the small garden I own. You could see the sea from where I was standing. It was calming. Sometimes I just hope that Steward and mom knock at my door apologizing and us being a normal family again. But I could just stay hoping.

I flinch as I hear someone opening the garden door behind me and turn around. It was JJ. I roll my eyes and keep looking at the calm sea. He stands next to me. We just stay there in silence. "Why aren't you sleeping?" I ask whispering at him. He doesn't look at me. "Why aren't you sleeping?" He asks the same question back to me. I shrug knowing he doesn't look at me. "Are you okay?" He asks suddenly. I turn my head to look at him. Why is he asking this now?

"Yeah I am, why?" I ask back. "You looked really happy with that guy you were earlier." He says. "Yeah I met him on the beach today. He was teaching me to surf." I say back but one questions still stuck in my head. "Why are you talking with me now? What changed your mind about me..?" I say really quietly not trying to make him hear my breaking voice. This topic makes me cry every time because it is just so unfair towards me.

He doesn't answer. "JJ.. answer me. You were ignoring me and made me feel like a bad shitty person for a whole year man." I say truthfully fed up by his confusing self. "I don't know it myself..." he mumbles. "I don't f$cking know who to believe Y/N." He continues getting louder. "Just because Steward is my brother doesn't mean that I was a part of that stupid fight." I yell back.

"How would you feel like after your friends beat you up and talk shit about you?" He asks getting into my face with a serious expression. "Of course I would feel betrayed but I'd still listen to the other story!" I say trying to make a point. "You wouldn't! You never were in my position Y/N!" He yelled at my face tears coming out of his eyes.

"I f&cking loved you!"

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