Dangerous Dance

CHAPTER 10 - Asher

Since Scarlett left for her little date, I have been waiting for her to get home safe. This is not only because I promised her brother to take care of her. It's because it drives me insane that she's out with another boy right now.

The door opened quietly, and I instantly looked over to see who it was. It was Scarlett, and luckily she was alone. Now that I knew she was home safe, I could get to sleep. I turned off my game, and went directly past her without saying anything.

I know that i have no right to be mad, but what the fuck? A date?

What is even going on with me? Getting, i don't know, jealous over this?

I walked up to my room without looking back. I could hear her tiny footsteps behind me. Our room is in front of each other, but no words were said, from the moment she came home, to the moment we both closed the doors to our rooms. I took off my shirt, and looked at the clock. It's officially Friday, and 2 years since my mom took her own god damn life. I could feel an overwhelming feeling in my body. A feeling I know too well. My hands began to shake, and my heart was pounding. I haven't had a panic attack in a long time.

But I couldn't help it today, too much was going on.

A tear ran down my cheeks. God damn. I dried it away, but another tear came, and then another, and another. I couldn't stop it.

I dropped out of college when I was 19, only one year in college but it wasn't for me. I then met Julian, he was the boss at the magic mike show, and offered me a job. After practice today, Julian and I went out to get a beer. I was so ready for the show this weekend. Now I was on my way home, and to be honest I would rather stay away. I knew that when I stepped into the house, the last 3 hours of fun would be gone.

I was so tired of hearing my dads voice. I was tired of seeing him, and I was tired of how he treated my mom. He was an abusive asshole, and everytime i saw him and every time he laid a hand on my mom, I wanted to beat him.

When I dropped out of college he tried to hit me, like he had a million times. But this time I was stronger, and not afraid. That was the last time he ever hitted me.

I came home, and everything was so quiet. No one was yelling, and that was new. The only reason for that is, that my dads car was away. He's properly out drinking, like he always does.

"Hello," I closed the door, and got no answer, "Hello?" Still no answer. My mom was always home, so I was confused when she did not answer me. She wasn't in the living room, or her bedroom. My heart dropped when I finally found her. She laid on the kitchen floor, with her wrist cut opened up. I couldn't understand what was happening, but I rushed to her.

"MOM!!" I yelled, tears ran down my face. "MOOM!!" No way! I dried my tears away, and took my find from my pocket. 911, I called them, as fast as I could.

"Hello it's 911. What's your emergency?" they asked.

"Hello," I couldn't breathe, but I did everything I could to get the words out. "My mom committed suicide, i need an ambulance"

They sended a ambulance and before I could see around I was at the hospital. Still no answer from the doctors. I didn't know who to call, i couldn't call my dad, because he didn't care, and james was at the college, so I called Julian. "I need your help," I said, i tried to hold back my tears, but my eyes were already red for all the crying. I couldn't get myself to say the words, without breaking "im at the hospital Julian, its an emergency." After that my hands began to shake, and my heart started pounding, A feeling I never had felt before. My breath got heavier and faster. It was hard to breathe.

Julian came as fast as he could, and I'm sure he had driven a little too fast the whole way.

"Asher, shit" he said and ran over to me. He saw me having a panic attack, and tried to help me get out of it. And I was scared. I never had one of these before, and it feels awful. "What is going on," he said. He holded my cheeks in his hands, and looked me deep in the eyes.

I was just about to say what was going on, but the doctor came before me.

"I'm sorry Asher, there was nothing to do, she had lost too much blood, and your mom is not with us anymore."

I stood there, looking at the doctor with my mouth open. I didn't say anything. But my tears said enough. Everything was suddenly so quiet, I couldn't hear or do anything. I just stood there. In total chok.

Julian hugged me, but I didn't hug him back. I couldn't even lift a finger.

I couldn't understand this, and i didnt want to. It could not be true.

My mom was.

Dead.