"Having emotions is painful" [DOUMA ANGST]

"Crybaby"

"hahaha!"
"awww... Did you cry? Do you need your mom's kiss to get off Your boo boo?"

My mom.....? She always abuses and hates me, how is she going to do that to me.....?

They call me crybaby.... Crybaby

"Blonde b1tch!"
"Ugly"
"Crybaby"
"Weak"
"Idiot"
"Piece of sh1t"
"Pale skin"

They always saying those words
But, these words keep repeating my head

"Crybaby"
"Crybaby"
"Crybaby"

Am i crying too much.....?

They call me crybaby.....

Im walking back to my class after im bullied
Everyone is staring at me with
laughter

The teachers didn't even give a sh1t about my problem....

I HATE THEM

IM NOT A ROBOT

IM HAVE EMOTIONS TOO

There's a day, where i had enough of everything
So before i go to school, my mom gave me a bread (only a single bread) so i have a little breakfast
But there's one thing that she didn't know, I. Put. A. Knife. In. My. Backpack.

I went into school, frowning
There's a gang started bulling me
Oh.... They will regret this..

In the class room, there's not much person here, no teacher, only the gang that bullies me

I smiled as i started pulling a knife out of my backpack

Wait..................
But, if i kill them doesn't that mean everyone will know....?
Because im the only one that still alive and has a blood all over my clothes
I'll get expelled and my mom will abuse me more
I'll also go to jail and everyone will regonise me as a criminal.....
Everyone will consider me as evil
No...
Nevermind.......

I slowly put my knife back in.....
Started tearing up, accepting the fact.........

The gang sees me tearing up and started teasing me, bulling me, calling me a crybaby

Yes.....
This always happened.....
When will this end.....
When will this stop....

STOP
STOP
STOP
STOP.....