Simple Love

8-Goodnight

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING

I stumbled back into the recording room and grabbed Mikey. "Take Dani home" I slurred, my jaw screaming in pain. He nodded, a questioning look spread on his face, and gave me a hug. I walked out and ran down the stairs, sprinting to my house. I felt the tears spreading down my face with every leap.

I unlocked my door and ran into my bathroom, opening the toilet seat. I cried and started to puke up blood, sobbing harder and harder. I opened my cupboard and grabbed out a pill bottle. I poured the contents out on the floor and popped two for my headache. I fumbled around with them until I found a small piece of shining metal.

Do it!!! My mind began screaming at me. Do it now!! I shaking took the glimmering metal and the pills and ran into my room, locking my door. I sobbed and took off my pants. I dug the metal into my thigh and let out a loud gasp of air that I hadn't realized I had been holding in.

I grabbed the pills and shoved a few down my throat. Eli is mad because you're the whore!! My thoughts bombarded my mind. I began shaking and sat on my bed. I looked at the shining blade and began again.

One: for being weak

Two: for being a fag

Three: for letting your family down

Four: for killing your sister

Five: for the fights

Six: for being a mistake.

I smiled and turned to the other thigh. I bit my lip and turned on How To Save A Life by the Fray, and felt tears mix in with the rapidly flowing blood.

Seven: for hurting Mikey

Eight: for being a whore

Nine: for Dani

Ten: for letting Eli use you

Eleven: for liking it

Twelve: for letting Monroe rape you

I sobbed and looked down at the blade which was covered in a maroon color. I bit my lip and slid up my sleeves. You fucking deserve this my mind screamed.

Thirteen: for being fat

Fourteen: for being anorexic

Fifteen: for sleeping with Eli

Sixteen: for letting Eli use you as a sex slave

Seventeen: for being lazy

Eighteen: for being alive.

Go to sleep!! Go to sleep!!! My head began to race and I held a hand to my head. I felt my knees go out from under me and I fell to the ground, blood staining my tan carpets. Just go to sleep.

( hey guys so I'm really really sorry about this one, uh... it's kinda just a filler. If you want to scream at me, do it. :D I hope you all know that if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here. I may not respond right away because I do have a life, kinda, but I will answer. I hope none of you are going through any of this, but if you are, just Private Message me and I will be willing to talk about it. I love you guys. Again, sorry for the shitty filler)