Love doesn't disappear

Chapter Three

A few hours have passed since the accident, but I barely left the team's garage, they didn't let me go alone and told me to stay because there are journalists outside and they don't want to let me see me like that.  The race didn't last long, it finished in 46 laps and I'm glad that something didn't happen to another driver, it would have helped if it was just an accident, I didn't want there to be any more.

I had time to call my parents and Jules' parents, how I reacted, but they reacted even worse.  Jules' mother started crying and wondering why it happened, and I told her about the discussion I had with her son before the race, they said to let them know about what was happening, if he  move to a hospital or leave him here in Japan.

When I called my family, my father answered and I don't think it will be easy for him either

"Hello? Dad?" I say on the phone, my voice hoarse from crying and screaming

"Amalia? My girl, what happened to you? Why are you crying?" I hear my father, I feel that he is worried

"Jules..."

"Daddy's girl, what's wrong with Jules? What happened? Are you okay?"

"Where's mom?"  I ask him

"She's in the kitchen now I'll call her"

I hear my father calling my mother and telling her that he is worried about my condition

"Amalia, my beloved girl, what happened?" my mother asks me
"Does dad hear me too?"

"Hear you"

"Mom, dad, it's Jules, something happened. He lost control of the car and crashed into a tractor and 2 hours ago he was taken to the hospital, they didn't let me go because of the journalists, but  now I can go to him, I called his parents, and now I'm waiting to see if they move him to another hospital or if we stay here in Japan"

"God! Amalia I can't believe it. How are you my dear?" my mother asks

"How can I be, mom, I feel like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, I can't anymore and I told him today when we woke up, I told him not to race today, but he said that everything will be fine but it wasn't and I feel like dying right now. I can't lose him mom, he's my husband, I love him so much, I can't lose him" I said to my mother and started to make me cry again

"Mother's girl, you have to be strong, nothing is going to happen. You have to go to the hospital to see him"

"A friend of Jules' will take me, I'll keep you informed of what's happening, I love you"

"We love you too, take care my girl"

When I raise my head I see Daniel Ricciardo, one of Jules's best friends, he looks at me and comes and takes me in his arms

"Everything will be fine. Let's go to the hospital!"  he tells me and takes me to the car

I get in the car and my thoughts are only on Jules, I want him to be well and I'm angry that I didn't tell him that I'm pregnant with his child or children, his inheritance.
We arrive at the hospital and I go to the counter, Daniel decided to leave me because I am part of the family

"Hello, I'm looking for Jules Bianchi"

"Hello, I cannot give you information if you are not part of the family, I'm sorry."  the nurse there told me

"To be clear, I am the wife of Jules Bianchi, Amalia Bianchi."

"Excuse me Mrs. Bianchi. Mr. Bianchi is now out of surgery, but you can see him"

"Where can I find him?"

After I asked this, I hear someone calling my name and I turn around and see Jules' brother, he approaches me and tells the nurse that I will go with him.

I go with him and my tears started to fall again, I look at my brother-in-law, maybe he will tell me what he found out about my husband's condition.  We reach the floor where Jules is, we go and reach a door.

At that moment he was looking at me and I could see him finding his words with difficulty.

"Amalia, as you know Jules is out of surgery and I know it will be hard to say but Jules is kept in a coma and right now he is fighting for his life"

After he said that, my legs couldn't hold me anymore and I fell to my knees and started crying even harder.  My husband, the person I have loved for almost 20 years, was fighting for his life.  It is possible that he will leave me.