just breathe | Billie Eilish

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Alice

I really never thought I'd be where I was right now, the after party for a show that I had just preformed. It all felt surreal honestly, I had never expected to blow up the way I did when I released my music. The beginning of the party started about an hour ago, people were congratulating me and taking a bunch of pictures.

It really was fun at first, I got to meet Conan fuckin grey, and of course his iconic duo partner Olivia Rodrigo. It was honestly such a surprise at the amount of people so much more famous than me who showed.

Of course I had been friends with Conan and Olivia through messages and insta since I blew up but I finally got to me them.

The party had died out, most people had left seeing as it was half to midnight. I found a seat at the bar and sighed staring at the mass texts I was getting from my "better half". I really wish I could bring it in me to enjoy tonight seeing as it was for me.

I muted my phone shoving it to the bottom of my purse and ordered two shots. I downed them both and stood up feeling the burn in my throat I needed.

I went to the bathroom and sat in the stall. I rummaged through my purse before pulling out a bag, laying two lines on the little flat surface in the stall. God how I loved being a woman just for the trinket holders in the stall. I pulled out my usual already rolled up dollar and snorted the two lines. The burning in my nose and throat, was a feeling I missed. I rubbed my nose and got up going back out.

I heard the weeknd playing and started feeling the lines. I swayed on the floor, the music echoing in my ears. I really was having the time of my life right now even if I was by myself. I found myself making eye contact with this girl, I really couldn't see at all, everything was a blur. I just knew I was staring into these piercing blue eyes. I didn't even mind that they felt like they were staring into my soul. I was so lost in the music and dancing.

I broke off the eye contact and went back to the bar, ordering another two shots. My throat still stinging made it a little bit harder to just down these two shots. Henny always gets me fucked up but that's honestly what I needed right now. I didn't even hear someone sit on the stool next to me as I fished my phone out of my purse sighing when I unlocked it.

Mika🖤

Mika 🖤

yo where the fuck are you???
Bro???
why the fuck didn't you tell me you were going out after?
I gotta see this shit online
you better text me back the fuck
bro istg.
text me right fucking now.
if you aren't at my house in an hour I'm gonna be so fuckin pissed alice.
don't do anything fuckin stupid I swear to God.
It's been a fuckin hour and you haven't even look at my texts. some fucking girlfriend.
Read at 11:47

Alice
Babyy I'm sorry chill out I told you I'd be going. and plus why wouldn't I go to my own after party?
Read at 11:49

I sighed not wanting to deal with that anymore. I laid my head flat on the bar, feeling nauseous and lightheaded. "It's a party just for you and you don't even seem to be enjoying it." a raspy voice said. Not even bothering to look up I laughed dryly and slurred,"Can you blame me? I fucked up my performance, embarrassed myself and I'm all alone right now. Not to mention my girlfriend.." I said that last part more to myself. I sat up and was met with those same piercing blue eyes from earlier.