(a/n this is kinda sad and contains violence and some gore. It might trigger some people. 3 guesses as to what happens my friends. if u want spoilers{ish} for the sake of sophie's mood think Eliza in the stay alive reprise )
I felt dead. Hollow inside. Numb. Yet somehow I still felt my misery, anguish, aggravation and ire . All running through me so strong and fast i could barely breathe. And there was no one here to help me. He wasn't here. He would never be here again. Because he was dead and gone. Ripped away all too soon. He was only twenty four. Stabbed in the back by his own mother in the heat of a battle against the neverseen. And there was nothing i could do. At this moment I wasn't even able to cry, staring at his dead body surrounded by a pool of his own blood. His last moments replaying over and over in my head.
The battle was a guilt laden blur, even with my photographic memory. Until it wasn't. I swiveled around ,the scenery becoming sharp and clear. I saw Lady Gelisa standing menacingly behind keefe. A knife in her hand. I let out a cry of warning but it was too late. He had been stabbed. I saw the emotions flash across his face, his shock pain anger and finally heartbreak filling his face as he realized who had stabbed him. The sob of pain that he released shook me out of my trance as I threw a throwing star at Gelisa. I don't know where I was aiming and didn't care as hit her with the full force of my inflicting.I saw blood seeping out of her collarbone as she fell. I turned all my attention to keefe who was bleeding out in my arms.
"Foster" he crooked.
"Shhhhhhh. Keefe baby you gotta save your strength. We're gonna get you to Elwin and he's going to fix you up. Okay?" He shook his head and somewhere fundamentaly deep inside me I knew it was the last battle he was going to fight. The knowledge was primal and I refused to acknowledge or accept it.
"No. Foster she got me pretty good. I don't think Elwin's -" the rest of his sentence was cut off as I focused on dropping us into the void sobbing. It didn't cross me until later that the tears in his eyes were mostly because he know he was living his last moments and that truth was hard to swallow and he was forced to accept it.
We dropped a few inches onto a cot as I scrambled up to yell for Elwin. In my hysterics a boy saw me and touched my shoulder.
"What happened. Never mind I'll get Elwin and tell him it's an emergency. He had to go help someone who accidentally got hit in the arm with a throwing star during combat training in PE." All I could do was nod.
I rushed back over to keefe stroking his hair whispering that he was going to be okay into his ear. At that moment Elwin rushed in, took one quick glance then said one of the most heartbreaking things I'd heard that day. "I'll try. He lost a lot of blood." When I didn't move he snapped at me.
"Sophie Elizabeth Foster I need you to get your arse off the cot and out of my way." I did as he said and scampered behind where keefe was laying. He reached his hand out to me and I grasped it like a lifeline.
"Sophie." Oh no no no no no no no no. This was not happening. I didn't want him to be serious With what he was about to say. That primal knowledge and instinct that he was dying was sinking in.
"Look at me" I had no choice but to comply
" I love you and I know you love me so when I'm gone you have to do something's for me" I meekly nodded my head .
" first off- gahhhhhh that hurt- you don't have to get over to me but get out there. Go on at lest four dates. Second I want you to have mrs stinkbottom. If you miss me snuggle her . Third tell tam I'm sorry . Fourth. My wandering. I want it away from the rest of the sencens . Lastly even when I die I want you to know that I'm still gonna live you."
