"Sam, can we see later?" she asked me.
"Sorry. I can't. Busy"
"Can you just give me a minute?" she insisted.
"Ok. Later. At the park. 4:30"
And I left her standing at the hallway.
Disrespectful right?? I know..
Being cold is the only way to keep her MINE, till the day she will break and leave me.
I know. She's broking up with me. Sad right? How did I knew?
*flashback*
We were at the park. I was sleeping at her lap while she was playing with my hair.
She was singing.I pretended to be asleep.
"Sam, you know. You are really a good guy. And I dont deserve you. Thats why I'm going to break up with you. I dont know when but I will tell you as soon as I can. " then she continued singing.
* end of flashback*
That was the day that my heart shattered into tiny pieces.
That was the day I become cold and devastated.
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I went to the park 4:25. Five minutes earlier than our meet up time.
Exactly 4:30, I saw her walking towards a bench near a narra tree.
I was just staring at her beautiful face. Her tantalising eyes, her perfect nose and her kissable lips .
I came five minutes late, intentionally. So that, she can really say that I'm busy when I'm not. I also wore my earphone, to look more cold.
"Sorry for being late" I lied. I was late because I was staring at your beautiful face.
If you only knew how much I love you..
"It's okay, it was just 5 minutes." she replied with a smile.. Damn
, that smile that made me fall for her. But I guess I'm the only one falling. One-sided love.
Silence covered our atmosphere. I wish I could stay like this, being with her. But I know it will end soon. Oh, how I wish I could make the time back to the days when we were happy. Damn, we lasted 2 years.
"Uhmmm.. I need to tell you something" she broke the ice.
"Go on" i said. But deep inside I'm trembling. What if she will say it now?
*ring**ring*
Oh God! Atlast!
I looked at my phone.
"Sorry, I need to go back. Coach was looking for me." I lied again. I directly walked without looking at her. Truthfully, no one texted me.
I already know that she's going to break up with me that time. Thats why I alarmed my phone 6 minutes before I went to the bench where she was sitting. Then, my plan succeeded.
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I saw Kim waiting outside my classroom.
Luckily, we have two doors in our classroom and Kim was waiting on the front door. I directly pretended I didnt saw her and wore my earphone to act like I didn't hear her.
"Sam!" she called. I walked towards the back door.
"Sam!" she called out again. I didn't look back. Sorry Kim, this is the only way to keep you, MINE..
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Kim texted me to see her at the playground near their house. It's not that far, were neighboorhoods.
"Hey, Sam" she greeted me..
I was going to say how much I missed her. Though, I saw her yesterday but I ran off.. "Hey" is all I could say. Speechless.
"Sooo.. uhmmm.. are you okay these past few days?" I can feel my heart beat beating fast. Oh! Please not NOW nor NEVER..
I mustered all my courage to stay cool. "Yep. You?" I didn't look at her eyes. No, I dont want to cry.
"Sam. I need t-"
"I was asking you. Dont change the topic." I cut what she's about to say. No! Please! No! Command was clear in my tone.
Truth is I'm scared to hear it.. I dont want to end anything about US.
"Sorry. I'm good" she replied.
I stared at her."That's good to hear" was the only thing I could reply. Then, i looked at her eyes. Those eyes. I didn't stop staring at her. Maybe this would be the last time I could see her face. Near and clear. I wanted to touch her but I couldn't. I can feel the liqiud forming in my eyes.
No! Not now! Sam! Calm your self.. Dont cry! For pete's sake Sam! Dont cry!
"Sam?" Oh God! Please, Kim NO!! She lowered her voice. These only means..
Sh*t.
No! Kim! I love you!
Tears are forming faster in my eyes. I looked away. I dont want her to see me cry.
"Please! Dont say it! I will do anything for you to love me again. Please. Kim. I love you so so much that you could never imagine."
I wanted to say these words but I couldn't because she might knew that I'm in the verge of crying..
"I'm breaking up with you. I really loved you, before. I dont know what happened, I just fell out of love.
Sorry, Sam."
Thats it!
We're done.
Tears immediately streamed down my face. She just left me there. The last word she could just say was "Sorry" then she ran away..
Will that 'SORRY' of hers, mend my shattered and broken heart?
Will that 'SORRY' make me forget all those memories we had? Those days when we were so happy and living without worries. Or maybe I was the only one happy?
And the misery she left me..
She has the whole piece of my heart..
Now, how can I make it whole again??
How could I?
Those 2 years of happiness just evaporated because of those 23 words of heartbreak.
Maybe this is the reason why storms are named after people. They come and go leaving a great damage that would change a persons life, FOREVER.
How can I move on? When I'm still stock in the times when we were together. What kind of spell did she cast on me that made me so so so inlove with her? Will I ever forget her? If my heart still belongs and longs
For HER...
