𝕬𝖒𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝕯𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖞

K A B I R

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"I choose me, I'm sorry"
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I'm not Sorry

I'm feeling like a coward now. I ran away that night leaving everything. Just because everything gave me flashbacks? I want a fucking new beginning, a cold new beginning in my dark. 

"Bhai, mom dad's anniversary is on this Thursday. That means day after tomorrow. Kuch socha kya?" Avi brought me out of my thoughts.

I completely forgot about their wedding anniversary. I need to gift them something. 

"I'll take care of the gift." I replied to Avi.

"Fine then. I'll take care of the party and call all their friends, you can handle media. I might be able to get tracks back too?" Avi asked getting confused.

"You will." Was the only thing I can think of consoling him.

I've to find something great as a gift for them. Not just because it's there anniversary, also because I want peace in my family. I want mom to think rationally about Avi. Something better something new would be perfect for them because they are perfect. Something from which they remember me and Avi at times when they see those.

I turned back to the place where I and Avi were sitting only to find him stretching himself. I curtly nodded at nothing and opened my mouth,

"Avi, I'm going  to one of the nearest mall to find what to gift. Do you have any idea, about gifting them something?"

"Ah! I might." He replied scratching his neck in nervousness.

I curtly nodded, encouraging him to continue while folding my hands against my chest and shifting my right leg a little front to relax.

"Well, I sort of thought about gifting them out a ring. Because normally, husband and wife share their rings on engagement, and I would love to see them doing it again. Might be with new promises this time." He shrugged ending the sentence, and saw me in my eyes, "Or something which can quite mom's anger, she'll be happy to relive her days. I guess?"

"Avi, stop getting nervous first. Take this as an opportunity and hit the goal. Don't worry, your gift would work, definitely." 

"Thanks bhai" I smiled slightly at him and turned away, picking up my coat from the sofa, I made my way outside the house.

Avi had sent me some kind of decorations with its price, I was just asked if any of them looked good according to me. I replied him quick and got back in search of the perfect gift.

The new beginning was written on front of a handbag as the company, that has just launched a new collection. That was a brown or beige colored bag. Not so big not so small. Something in between. I am bad with colors but I can say that this would look perfect on mom, though Avi's idea was awesome, I don't think that would suffice the hunger of people out there who are finding a chance to bitch about people. Avi doesn't think this way, but somebody have to.

 Without any other thought I picked the handbag and asked the sales girl, who has been eyeing me from the time I'm seeing this handbag. 

I signaled her to come towards me, and a seductive smile adorned her lips. She came near me and asked "Can I help you in something sir?" And the sir was so seductive. 

Ignoring all sort of her signs, I ordered, "Pack this bag with a neat decorative paper, and add a tag on it speaking happy birthday." 

She nodded and took the bag away to complete my order. Till then, I looked around the showroom, just to catch a glimpse of this girl standing at front of the white handbag which was on display.