Chapter 1: A Hole In My Heart

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I looked down at my knees. I just scattered her ashes. Not just anyone's. Hers. She was the one who made me keep going with my life. Now that she is gone I don't know what I will do. My friends Zeke and Sauna have been really nice but I still don't know what I have to live for. I have been sitting in the same place I was in when I was Dauntless. Even though I am not supposed to be here I can't leave. I can still feel her with me. I can still smell her here. She always smelled like soap from Abnegation.

I don't know how she did it. She saved to many lives by sacrificing her self. She was the most selfless bravest person I have ever known, the world has ever known and I don't know what to do with out her.

I look up. My room is the same but the took out my bed and dresser. I have nothing left her but the memories. Tears start streaming down my face. They are the first to come in a long time. I got up and moved across the floor. I opened up the loose floorboard on the floor hoping they hadn't found it yet. They hadn't. This was the real reason I came back. I grabbed my suspended water statue of it. Then I grabbed the page out of the tattoo book. I had grabbed it a while ago. It has a picture of her raven tattoo. I can almost see which one is her brother, her father and mother. I tucked them in my pocket and sat down again. I kept on thinking about her. Then I realized she wouldn't want me to be sitting here sulking like this. She would want me to go on with my life. I decided if that is what she would have wanted then that is what I am going to do. I walked out of the room. It was on of the hardest things I have ever done. I tried to draw strength from her. This is what she wanted. I walked down to the training center and grabbed a knife. I knew this was the one I threw at her ear. I can still see the slight tint of blood on it because we don't wash them. I put it in my pocket to. I want as much of my old life here with her as possible. Even though we only had a short time together it was the best time of my life. I walked over the chasm. I looked down. If I jumped now I would be with her. If I jumped this would be over. The pain and the heart break would all be over. I took a few steps back and I got a running start. Then I jumped.


Hi everyone! This is my first story so I would appreciate if you could be supportive! Although I would like come honest feedback. I am sorry I left you on a cliff hanger though. You'll just have to read the next chapter!

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