It's Fine To Focus and Prioritize First Your Dreams And Goals
by idolsheart
7-19-22
I want to achieve all my dreams and goals in life for me and for my family. That was me. I am that kind of person that will do everything to achieve that.
Be in a romantic relationship for me is not what I focus now, instead, I focus on my studies... that will lead me to achieve my dreams and goals in my life.
But... yeah, there is a but. The but that will test you if you're really has strong determination and passionate enough with your focus in life, your dreams and your goals.
Okay, there is my but. There is a but... There was a boy...
"Selsea, you're good, huh? I'm lucky to have you to this project. I'm a lucky partner of yours!" Nakangising sabi ni Julius sa 'kin habang gumagawa kami ng partnership project namin.
Pabiro akong umirap. "'Wag ka ng mambola diyan. Ipagpatuloy na natin ito."
Tumawa siya. "But, I am not kidding or bola na sinasabi mo,"
Umiling nalang ako at hindi na siya pinansin. Tinuon ko nalang ang atensyon sa project na aming ginagawa.
Julius is my classmate. We became partner sa isang project. He's kind and bubbly, loko din kung minsan. Taliwas sa ibang lalaking pasiga-siga duwag naman na inakala kong siya. He's good too in academic. Hindi ko ng alam kung bakit lagi niya akong sinasabihang magaling, eh magaling naman siya.
Our project lead us to be close with each other. We shared to each other our stuffs, like our favorites and our goals and dreams.
Naging magkaibigan kami. Nang bigla niyang sinabing... "Gusto kita, Sel." sa 'kin.
Nagulat ako, syempre magkaibigan kami. I don't know that time kung anong mararamdaman at dapat kong sabihin sa kaniya. Pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko. And I figure out that I have crush on him. Sino bang hindi magkakagusto sa isang gwapo na, matalino, gentleman na tao?
But, since start I know my focus and priorities. My goals and dreams, I have them. I want them to be my first priorities and focus now. I am cleared with that.
"Jul, sorry but... You know my focus and priorities now, right? Which is to achieve my dreams and goals." I told him.
Tumango-tango siya. "Yeah. Yes, I know of course. But, I just want you this to know, para hindi ako magsisi na walang ginawa. I just want you to know this, and I respect whatever your response. And I know it will be like this you are gonna answer to me. But don't worry, I understand. Thank you because naging kaibigan kita. I'm grateful to have you as my friend. A kind, beautiful, lovely woman." Sabi niya. Napayuko naman ako.
Sorry.
Ang sunod niyang sinabi ang nagpaangat ng ulo ko. "And, I just just want to say goodbye, Selsea. I'm leaving... abroad." Nakangiti siya pero kita sa mga mata niya ang lungkot.
"Yo-Your leaving? Are you leaving because..." Agad niya akong pinutol.
"No, Sel. Yes, I'm leaving but, It's not about because you didn't answer that you like me back? No, It's not that. It's for my future, Sel..."
Tumango-tango ako habang kagat ang ibabang labi para pigilan ang mamuo ang luha sa mata ko.
Bigla niya akong niyakap. "I wish you will be happy. I wish you'll finally achieve your dreams and goals in life. I wish you luck, Selsea." Bulong niya.
Tumango ako at pinahiran ang namumuong luha sa mata ko. Niyakap ko siya pabalik. "You too... Julius."
It's sad, but it should.
