I'm in love with Nikki Sixx?!

Don't Go Away Mad(Just Go Away)

(trigger Warning. Don't say I didn't warn you)

It had been a few weeks since Nikki and I started to date and we had no secrets, or so I thought.

"What the fuck Nikki?!" I yell at him trying not to cry. He had just come off stage and is high out of his mind. He was high off of Heroin so was Tommy. I scoff the toxic twins are back at it. He just stares at me. "Well? Are you going to explain to me why the fuck you're strung out of heroin?"

"Nikole... I'm sor.." I cut him off.

"No Nikki, if you were sorry you wouldn't have done it. You know what, I'm done Nikki."

"What do you mean you're 'Done'. You can't leave..."

"No Nikki that's one difference between us, I know when something is bad for me and when to leave it. And you are extremely bad for me and I'm DONE with it." He looks hurt. Good the bastard needs to know how I feel. It's best that I leave he just destroyed our relationship. I turn and start to walk away.

"Don't go away Mad..." Is the only thing he says.

"Just go away" I finish the quote. I continue to walk away.

"Tell me why you're leaving." I stop and look at him.

"I'M LEAVING SO THAT YOU DON'T RUIN MY LIFE LIKE YOU ARE YOURS. AND AS MUCH AS I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE IT'S THE BEST THING FOR ME AND OUR UN-BORN CHILD!" I stare at him and he stares back. I shake my head and turn walking away. I go to the bus and grab my bag then the keys to Nikki's Harley. I get on to the bike and drive to the hotel. I go to the room that Nikki and I share and go to the bathroom taking my make-up bag out of my bag. I take my Razor blade out of the case and roll my sleeve up. I put the cold piece of metal to my arm and as I make the first cut there's a knock on the door but I ignore it. The person keeps knocking.

"Nikole open the door." I hear Mick say quietly. I look at my now bloody arm and start to cry.

"It-it's open" He opens it and looks at my arm.

"Nikole..." He sighs and grabs the gauze and ace bandage. "Let me see your arm." I give him my arm and he cleans it then bandages it. "So, you're pregnant?" I nod and he frowns. "I'm sorry. Nikki's a dick. I'll tell you what he's in the room and he's crying like actually crying." I look down.

"Can you call Duff for me?" He nods and calls. Duff shows up a few minutes later and hugs me.

"Come on Nikole lets get you out of here. Nice shirt by the way." I look down at my shirt and smile. I'm wearing my Guns N' Roses shirt that Duff got me. He takes my hand and I look at him.

"Can you give me a second?" He nods as I take my hand out of his and go into the room seeing Nikki. "Nikki?" He looks up and falls to his knees in front of me.

"Nikitten I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry." He looks up at me and I roll my eyes.

"Nikki stand up" He stands and now I'm the one looking up at him. "I love you, but after this I can't risk our child's health. I'm sorry." He looks down then at me. Next thing I know his lips are on mine and I'm kissing back. He pulls away.

"Please don't go." I sigh and look down. "Please, you promised that you wouldn't leave me."

"You left me Nikki. You did this to yourself."

"Nikole, please. I'll change, I promise."

"Nikki, I..." He kisses me again this time he wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer to him. We end up on the bed my back on it and him over me with my legs wrapped around him. His lips move down to my neck leaving a few love bites. I moan as he licks my collarbone.

(Cliff Hanger Gotta love them)