0227 | sunki

Epilogue

"g-gab, p-please... I-I need him."  Keiz cried again, holding into gab as he shouted in pain, face buried into his friend's chest as he sobbed more painful.

"K-Keiz, s-stop."

"n-no, I should've stopped him, I shouldn't have left. I should've tried harder to stop him, to change his mind. I shouldn't have l-left him."

gab caress his friend's hair, doesn't know how to comfort as he himself is lost because of his idol's death.

Keiz gazed at the ring he's wearing, crying again when he remembered what Colt has told him about the ring. "this was the first ever fruit of my hard work. I bought this when I got my first paycheck and ought to myself to give this to my beloved that I'm sure I'll love for a lifetime."

he bit his lower lip, finally walking slowly towards the room where Colt's body is. He glanced back at gab who smiled at him, signing him to continue as his knees trembled.

he slowly opened the door, lifeless body of colt welcomed him. he walked towards colt, hands on his mouth to control his cries.

i was just slowly walking towards you with a flower for some kind of a wedding thing and now I'm walking towards you, with a flower for your death.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left y-you."

was the first thing that came out of his mouth, an apology for leaving.

"I should've stayed with you like I promised."

"I love you so much."

he stared at the whole body covered with white blanket, instantly breaking down as he fell on his knees. "you even wrote a letter for me, how can you do this to me?"

he asked in disbelief, finally opening the letter he had been keeping since earlier. A tear once again fell from his eyes, betraying him as he tried so hard not to cry.

"to my beloved Keiz,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry for giving up, I'm sorry for not fighting for us. when you asked me that weren't you enough for me to stay— you are enough, more than enough but I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise, I was so serious when I told you we can live happy together, believe me, I tried so hard to fight. I almost stopped you from leaving because as soon as you turn your back to me, I died.

you are an angel, mesmerizing and pleasing in the eye. you caught my attention when you had an invisible battle of eye contact with me but you got my heart when you decoded my masterpiece. you're right, I was waiting for someone to decode it as it is my sign to finally do it but when you came, I doubt it. when I heard you cry, begging me to not leave, I died inside because I know I cannot grant it.

I know you'll probably read this once I'm dead but I just want to let you know that I'm not mad, I wanted you to turn your back to me in the first place as I can't bear to kill myself in front of you, knowing that I already grew feelings for you.

I knew back then that you'll become a reason why I'll choose to stay,  I'm so sorry for leaving you. I didn't want to leave but I have to.

the ring I gave symbolizes my love for you, keep it as it is the only treasure I can give you. I appreciate everything you did for me, I appreciate your existence. my house now belongs to you, as I promised to myself that the owner of my heart will own my house too.

I love you so much, I'm sorry for leaving.

"0227-7492-910-143." (I wanna rest, I wish I could have a better life, sorry I hurt you, I love you)

before, the reasons for my albums are meant for others, now it's all for you.  for the owner of my heart, I love you and I'll wait for you in the heavens, Keiz Vera.

from: Colt Hidalgo.

he cried, leaving the room as he cried without control, running towards his car to escape everything as he drove back to Colt's house. he entered without hesitation, doesn't care even if the police were guarding the house. it's mine now, after all.

he went upstairs, entering their room as he opened every drawer until he found what he's looking for. he took colt's phone and opened the recordings.

"I made a song for you as my passion will now end, and my career will no longer exist. I give you this last song, Keiz."

Keiz then took his earphones and plugged it in his ears before laying on his side of the bed, wearing Colt's hoodie as he let it engulfed him, it's warmness brought calmness and comfort to his whole existence as Keiz hugged Colt's pillow, sniffing it as he drifted to sleep, finally in paradise as his heart stopped from beating along with the song.

because the owner of his heart is Colt. the moment Colt died, his heart died too.