Johora

Ch- 3 A Bad Friend?

I was running out of my collection of 'Non-con BL', so I decided to create a group chat to fill my bucket with new recommendations and share my own collection.

Soon it was full of so many new joiners and they were always actively messaging in the gc all morning and night so I was never bored. It even took off my mind briefly from my family matters and from the much needed break up I had with my boyfriend that have been ruining my mental, physical and emotional health. I was satisfied, that's how I entered my accursed birth month May.

The next few days we all including me sprightly shared recommendations and I had collected plenty of new R-BL's to read and so did the others. After 2-3 days of doing this we were bored on 4th May my blasphemous birthday and decided to chat amongst ourselves regarding various things. I didn't say much of my own matters but listening to them and responding was definitely fun. In merely 3 days I got to know about 5-6 of them and they were already in my personal dms. They were all friendly to me and I'm glad they accepted me as the admin and the rules I made when I created this gc. It wasn't my first time being an admin so I know how to do things and take care of a group, I am already an admin of an official Fb BL group with over 45k members, so handling this small gc is a piece of cake for me.

I was listening to their chit-chat and replying accordingly when a girl's text caught my attention. I don't remember now what we were discussing about back then, but it was probably about abuse and crimes when this girl said something like she has failed as a friend so I implored her why was she saying such a thing.

To which she just added another question and asked us if she was a bad friend. Well I didn't know her so it was not upto me to decide without even knowing the cause for which she was blaming herself for. That's why I questioned her why she thought that way. Most of the group members were just watching us conversate as they talked with each other, but I know they were keeping track of our conversation as they were replying to her answers to my every question ever so often.

Her response left me surprised but not shocked, afterall a friend losing his/her life because of another friend's negligence is not a new news in today's date.

Basically she was subjecting herself to be responsible for her friend's death, but even as it may, this doesn't mean that she murdered her friend. Of course one's negligence causing the death of another person was absolutely wrong and distasteful but I couldn't make her the villain in my mind without even knowing her part of the story.

Wherefore I grew more anxious to learn what kind of 'negligence' is she talking about that caused her friend's death ?

Her answer was that she had been negligent towards her friend and her feelings. She had rejected her friend after which their distance started growing and she didn't put the effort to engage herself more with the girl either as she is pretty busy herself. But even though she didn't accept it I understood that their distance isn't what caused her friend's early demise. It was her friend's dad who kept mentally and emotionally abusing his own daughter that pushed her to her end.

After listening to this I couldn't blame her even more. After all her friend died because of her own family, not because of her rejection and so I told her the same. This seem to have calmed her a bit but she was still upset and angry at her friend's pathetic father whom she said wanted to punish.

By then I have already memorised her name, it was 'J Johora'. She kept going on about how nice her friend was to her and how she could have saved her only if she had been a little more attentive, or perhaps if she had not rejected her.

To be honest, I don't know if it is going to make me sound heartless if I said this, but when someone is going to die, he/she is bound to die, no amount of efforts, prayers or sacrifices can stop it.
Even if Johora had sacrificed her heart and became her girlfriend, I don't think this could've saved her friend or at least made her feel better, afterall, how is someone supposed to fake the feeling of 'love'? Even her friend would've figured out that she possessed no feelings for her, which I suppose would've just made things worse.

I told her the same, her next response was contemplated, she said she had a crush or some similar feelings towards her now late friend too but didn't try to take any actions to change their friendship. For the first time since the beginning I found a fault where I could blame her for as I knew she wanted me to, so I told her clearly that she was to blame for it then as she didn't try to make any progess in their contemporary friendship and change to being lovers, it was all too late now to mourn over. At this point I wasn't even sure if what she said was true and she actually had those sorta feelings towards her late friend even if its just a tad bit or she was just seeking a reason so that I could blame her. Nonetheless, this time she was impressed by how I blamed her, she certainly behaved like she was.

Her entire friend's story reminded me of my own dad and for the first time in the group I shared with my group mates how I used to get abused by my own father which stopped only until recently.

They obviously gave me sympathy and compassion, Johora too showed her clear displeasure on hearing that I have also been abused like her late friend.

More of the group members shared their own private stories and secrets. Soon we began sharing our real photos and introducing ourselves to everyone in the gc. We all were girls there with only 1 boy in our group, most of the girls were pretty cute but none caught my attention as intensely as she did, that girl, Johora, yes again, her.

I couldn't believe my eyes for what I was seeing, her photo . . . she looks exactly like her. .

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KEYWORDS:-
•BL: Boys Love/BoyxBoy/Yaoi/Gay
•Non-con Bl: Non-consensual sex BL
•R-BL: Rape BL
•gc: group chat
•Fb: Facebook
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