ATWOW: Highschool au!

Beach day

   May 11th

As much as he seems like a boy with attitude and rudeness, he's not. For the past few weeks he's been comforting his siblings on and on non-stop. He himself hasn't even got any time to himself because of it, it's always because his siblings got homesick or something, sometimes he has to comfort Lo'ak when he gets in trouble by his father.
  But how is Neteyam taking the move? Not so good. He had gotten into an argument with his brother about him not telling his younger brother of how he feels about everything, Lo'ak knew that something was wrong and wanted to know so much. I mean yea he just moved far away from his home he grew up in to a place he doesn't even know if he likes or not which was kinda bumming. But the thing that his brother doesn't know is that he also just got out of a 1 year relationship just to find out that guy had been cheating or playing him with someone else during their relationship breaks, just to have that guy break up with that person and get back with Neteyam, and not even 2 or 3 days after breaking up fully, he gets back with the same person! Neteyam only had a week of crying over the guy in silence because no one knows of it and at the end of that week he had to move. So now what is he doing at 12:34 am right now? Breaking down crying in silence feeling tired and his own eyes hurting and can barely even breathe because of how hard he's crying. He really thought that guy loved him as much as he did. All of those memories and happy moments together were all just coming back to him and breaking down even more because of how bad it hurts him.

Although he's been crying at night, whenever his siblings are there for comfort or just to bother him, he couldn't cry or show any emotions of sadness, and he just wanted to comfort them about whatever they felt. In reality his sibling were fine, they just wanted to be there with him. But his siblings didn't know what was going on, or that he really needed comfort, or that he try's to silent his cry's every single night by covering his mouth with his hand or just overall with a pillow. He feels like screaming out crying because of how much it hurts him. He really, truly, did love him. The guy made him feel seen, made him happy in the moments he wasn't, made him fully laugh, made him actually the happiest, made him forget every single problem in his entire existence. He could trust him with every secret in his soul, which is really true love to Neteyam since he's not really a social bird. So yea, it definitely broke him.

Even though he hasn't come out to anyone about him being gay, even though his mom and his sister Kiri knows without him telling them, will be the first time to come out to someone tonight.

    His mother had gotten up to get a cup of water, since his room is near by the stairs, you could hear his muffled hiccups and pained cries. And she did hear them, very clear actually, so she did what she knew she had to do, because she knew what cry that was, a cry of pain, a cry of broken heart, and a cry of capture. She remembers she cried like that all silently and muffled, because she lost her childhood best friend in 9th grade due to suicide. Her friend was like another sister to her. They were soulmates. The one she could trust with all her heart.

   So she did as she wished someone else did when she was devastatingly heartbroken, she got him a cup of water instead and went into his room as quiet as possible to not wake anyone else up.
  She saw him with the most broken face, with tears streaming down his face with his swollen lips and swollen red puffy eyes with tears. He saw her with blurry vision due to his teary eyes and saw how worried and sympathetic she looked.

"Oh my dear baby boy.." she whispered loud enough for both of them to hear, she walked to his bed and handed him the cup of water to which he took a sip out of and placed it on his nightstand, looking back at her trying to hold in his cry's with his shaken breathing, and he looked back down to his hands to which he brought up to his cheeks and wiped the tears, to which she caressed his cheek and brought him into a hug of comfort and warmth. To which he broke out crying into her shoulder, she felt the burning hot tears on her skin and just rubbed his back.