As It Is Bearable [COMPLETED✓]

Chapter 41.

Chapter 41.

"W-What?"

Pakiramdam ni Yasser ay biglang tumigil ang mundo niya sa sinabi ni Ledaine, habang si Ledaine naman ay umiling-iling.

"Funny because I'm not even pregnant to have a miscarriage," natatawang sabi niya na tila ba sinasagot ang tanong sa mga mata ni Yasser. "I thought I was since a few weeks ago, I have been seeing and experiencing some signs and symptoms of pregnancy, so when you left, I immediately took a pregnancy test to confirm it, only for it to turn futile. I'm not pregnant."

She explained in the most gut-wrenching tone of voice while sniffing and wiping her tears, smiling slightly every now and then as if to not make Yasser to feel terrible.

"Kaya akala ko I experienced false pregnancy, that's why I was so angry at you Yasser." Naninising sabi niya saka mahinang sinuntok si Yasser sa dibdib na para bang kasalanan pa ng binata na hindi siya nito nabuntis, "I hate you."

"I'm sorry."

Yasser felt utterly guilty after hearing what Ledaine said. Pakiramdam niya ay iyon na nga lang ang silbi niya sa mundo, hindi niya pa nagawa nang maayos.

"But then..."

Napayuko si Ledaine nang bigla na lang kumawala sa bibig niya ang malakas na hagulgol at ang walang tigil na pagpatak ng kaniyang luha.

"I've been experiencing pain in my stomach for a few days now, and today was the only time it became that severe and unbearable. When I said that to the doctor, he immediately said that it was possible that I had experienced an embryo miscarriage."

Yasser froze. Ledaine's hand holding his arm for support, dug his skin with her nails but he didn't care. He only stared intently at Ledaine to wait for her to continue what she was saying.

"I could have had blighted ovum and the actual miscarriage only happens now, that's what he said."

"B-But, it's not final yet, right? I mean, the doctor himself said that he's not sure either about your condition and he couldn't really say anything without the results of your examination--"

"But he said that it is possible for me to be infertile, Yasser." Ledaine muttered while bawling. "I won't be able to have a baby, I won't be able to have my own family, Yasser, do you know what it means...?!"

Yasser teared up and tears after tears rolled down from his eyes as he hug Ledaine tightly into his arms. He can't think of anything to do outside from crying with Ledaine and feel her demise. 

They cried with each other's arms without caring a bit whether their loud crying leak out of the room and disturb other people.

After awhile, Ledaine slowly calm down, but he could still hear some small sniffles leaking from her mouth. Even though her head was buried in his chest and he couldn't see her expression, he knew she was still in grief about her situation.

Kahit kailan, hindi maiintindihan ni Yasser-- o kung sino mang lalaki, kung gaano kasakit para sa isang babae ang malaman na hindi na siya kailan magkakaanak pagkatapos nitong malaman na nawalan siya ng anak. 

Pero kahit papaano, nararamdaman niya ang pighati ni Ledaine habang nasa bisig niya ito. He could feel her sufferings, and if he could, he wish that all those feelings that is making Ledaine cry will be his. Mahigpit niya itong niyakap saka pinuno ng halik ang kaniyang ulo.

"It's not certain yet, and the doctor haven't said anything. Let's not think about bad things at this moment and focus on resting, hmm? Do you want to eat anything? I called Hux and he's on his way here, we could ask him to buy some food on his way."  He said in a comforting tone.