Thugga

Chapter 3

I'm second guessing myself .. why am I so nervous ?? I think to myself as I look at the snapchat message.

"I um .. I did a lot of thinking before I decided to add you back"

what in the hell am I actually thing right now? I don't know this boy from a can of paint, and here I am just chatting away with him.

vzz vzz

damnit that was fast I need him to slow up so I can actually oh I don't know .. THINK of how I'm going to go about this. Pull it together Naomi .

" Oh you did huh? Why is that ? I'm just trying to get to know you. I've seen you around the job before figured i'd shoot a shot with you"

Nobody ever shoots there shot with me, I look like I hate everything about my life , and sometimes I do. Maybe he's just trying to be nice ? But why would a complete stranger want to be this nice to me? A crash and another "vzz" from my phone makes me jump, it's Lilly she's FaceTiming me.

" You always call when I look like trash"

I say smiling at the phone she's gonna yell at me for saying that. Me and Lilly have been best friends since the 4th grade. You'd think she'd be used to it at this point but she's not he hates that I think so low of myself .

"hush with that . I saw you talking to application guy before you left , what'd he want?"

I forgot I got done before Lilly tonight I should've known she'd have seen that we always have eyes on each other just incase.

"he asked for my number I didn't give it to him though I gave him my snapchat and he's already messaged me before you even ask and YES I gave him my snap not the other way around"

I say propping my phone on the table so I can eat before it gets cold.

"Mmmm soooo what'd he say? what's his name?"

" I didn't make it that far before you called I was actually about to text him back" I trail off

"good I have perfect timing lord know you don't know how to talk to people without feeling like your doing to much now I can tell you what to say and make it sound good."

she laughed and so did I she's not wrong though it's a thing I have, I don't know how it started or where it came from but I swear that's why I've been single for so long.

"so what was the last thing said"

I swipe out of the face time and get back on snapchat. " Oh you did huh? Why is that ? I'm just trying to get to know you. I've seen you around the job before figured i'd shoot a shot with you". Is the last thing I said.

"okaaay" Lilly says ask she looks at me with a smirk . "now you need to get his name, so just say something to the effect of

"well if we're going to be working together I should probably get your name"

she's way to good at this , this is why we're best friends

"Hmm I like that. that's good"

his little snapchat person is in the chat , he's waiting on me to reply . He must really want to see what I have to say.

"well application guy .. I guess if we might be working together I might as well get your name"

He's already typing.

"did you send it??"

I almost forgot I was on the phone that fast.

"yeah I did it says he's already tying"

"Oouu go Nai I see you"

"stoop it"

"he seems like the bad boy type .. I know that's kind of right up your ally but are you sure your ready for that again? I remember you telling me that if you have another failed talking stage you were going off the market. I know JT really took a toll on you and I just want to make sure your going to be okay. it's my job."

she's not wrong yet again JT my ex from a couple years ago really did take a toll on me and put me through a lot yeah he was the "bad boy type" but it wasn't real he just did it to make himself look and feel good all he did was lie, cheat, and flex with other people's money. It was toxic, a part of me really loved him at one point , but the lies and being made out to be a joke just pushed me to my breaking point.

"yeah you know I had this weird gut feeling earlier .. the fact that he waited for me after work posted up like that , the fact that he was hell bent on getting my number and or snapchat , and if you let him tell it . He's seen me around work before"

"and he had the balls to do all that and he's seen you at work ?? that says a lot you have the worst RBF known to man."

"no one asked you" I laugh.

vzz vzz

It's snapchat again and here come the nerves again.

" my name is Maverick i'm 29 you?"

Lilly is going to have a field day when I tell her how old he is, but I like that name it's different you don't hear that everyday .

"he's 29" I say with a slight smile on my face that soon turned into a laugh"

"29?!"

" yes girl 29"

I'm 19 . I have never been with someone that much older then me.

"are you going to tell him how old you are?"

"Duh what am I supposed to do lie ? you know I don't do that.

I like to think I am one of the most understanding people I know. so I don't lie and I don't like being lied to . I can't stand being lied to , which is why I have such bad trust thanks to JT I don't believe anything anyone says I think everyone is lying to me to the point where I don't even believe when people tell me I'm pretty, or that I'm doing a good job. The list goes on but it's something i'm working on.

"you just don't know how proud of you I am because had it'd been me i'd have lied" Lilly laughed.

I can understand why she would though 10 years is a big difference in just about every way you think of it. but I'm pretty "grown for my age" as most would say . i'm 19 with a paid off car , a place of my own that I pay for , I go to work , come home, that's really all there is to me I decided to take a year off of school so I could stack some money up because school isn't cheap and I hate asking anyone for anything so ill just work and save until I have enough to go.

"no lie i'm a little nervous to tell him"

"don't be if he's actually a grown man then everything will be just fine and if not and he is turned off by your age then so be it. look at it as if you made a new friend hell ya'll might even become best friends and then you'll have a male insight on how they run game so you'll always have the upper hand"

going back over to snapchat as she's talking I start typing to Maverick

"Cute name. it's different" I play it safe and just start with that I don't want to rush into telling him how old I am , this is making me feel like a little kid in a way. His person pops up in the chat again with the bubbles, he's typing again.

"hey Nai i'm going to get off here i'm getting sleepy. enjoy your scary stories, and please keep me posted on how the convo goes with you and application guy goes I need all the details !"

" his names is Maverick, I'm probably going to crash here soon myself but I will fill you in tomorrow I promise , I love you lil sleep good"

Hanging up the phone I realize his message hasn't came yet.

why am I so willing to talk to him ? I don't even know him. This really isn't like myself but maybe I need to not be myself for once maybe its time to shake things up a little bit.