Oh My Love !

Our Meet. (1)

My friends and i are just minding our business until the teacher came in. It was Ms. Felonia, she came in with another presence, it was the new student.

The new student was rather chilly and looked very intimidating.

"okay class please meet our new student." Sabi ni Ms. Felonia habang nakatingin sa studyante, i felt weirded out kase the way she looked at him looks like may gusto siya sakanya, i felt disturb.

"My name's Zachariah, i moved here from canda, call me zack na lang." He said while fidgeting with his hands, looking like he cares nothing for the world.

Nagsalita naman si Miss Felonia, "you may be seated at the back, kung saan walang nakaupo." I felt various of deja vu from this person.

Aisha whispered to me "bhe dimo ba nakikilala yan?" She said while leaning "hindi bakit?" I said with no hesitation. "bhe nakampucha ka naman oh, si zachariah yung laging mong ka bardagulan noong grade 4? Diba sinaksak mo pa nga ng pencil sa kamay, yun yung first time mo ma guidance."

I got chills, shivers down my spine, and i started to sweat uncontrollably. "Gago kaba? Naalala mo pa yon?? Palit na tayo upuan!"
"too late." Aisha said while disturbingly smirked at me looking ups and downs on zachariah who was seated beside me.

'I can't believe na seat mate ko siya!" I panicked. No wonder i shivered so much that i got the sense of deja vu, i know it may sound dramatic but i DID many things to him that you may not want to know.

"I hate him napaka playboy niya, that was the rumors going on, kahit gwapo napaka red flag, and guilty pa rin ako sa ginawa ko sakanya." I whispered to aisha, but she just ignored me and kept her eyes to the board, it was rather annoying.

Back in 4th grade i would always resent him for beating me at everything. Everything i wanted was given to him. I know it may sounds dramatic but let me tell you why.

Parents attentions was all given to him, i was always compared to him because he would always surpass everyone and that he is a successful person. I hated it so much that the hatred in my heart grew bolder.

I was a weird kid, but academically smart. That was because my parents would pressure me in doing it all, even my other family members, they would all compare me to their kids who "did" a lot better than i did. It normalized between our households, i hate their voices, it was annoyingly loud that makes me go berserk.

I really hated them for that, i grew up thinking i wasn't enough, no one would even take sides, i can't take sides, it was sad i know, they're wrong for doing that.

I often escaped to play with my neighbor, aisha, i grew up with aisha since. Tapos hanggang ngayon andito pa rin siya sa tabi ko, people say na no one can stay forever, pero i believe in that forever dahil kay aisha. Napaka supportive nya at malambing.

Lagi ko siya binibisita and her parents would welcome me with pure comfort, kaya mas gusto ko doon kesa sa sarili kong bahay, all i felt was a warm feeling.

pag dating sa school lagi ko inaasar si zachariah for some reason ang plano ko kasi noon is ipa-guidance siya para masira reputation niya, but unfortunately napaka calm niya, he has a very long ass patience that i can't bear with, diko talaga nakakaya 'yon so i started doing far more than that.

I started to make him trip or even hurting him, of course i felt bad pero it was for my sake. Alam ko napaka red flag ko noon pero na brainwashed ako gawa ng sarili kong magulang, i know its not an excuse but as a child i can't control my own emotions and feelings, it felt like i was sunked deep down and i hated that feeling.

I started stealing zachariah's belongings and other stuffs i can get my hands in, but he didn't bothered looking for it, every day i tried to spy on him to know what his favorite object was, but it wasn't successful either. Until the day i finally snapped.

I couldn't handle his personality so well, kaya naman i did far more than just stealing or tripping him, it was worse na hindi ko talaga makakalimutan, it was the moment na nasira reputansyon ko from doing that na kinakailangan kong lumipat ng school.

That's when guilt hit me.