Hurt/comfort one shots

𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎 - Regulus black

Regulus black x y/n

TW: sh, suicidal thoughts, panic attack

Info: you and regulus have been best friends sense first year and started dating at the beginning of third year. (It is almost the march of third year)
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It's getting worse I know that but I physically cannot ask for help, it's like as soon as I try my voice is gone, I've tried asking for help of course I have but every time I go to ask my mind and body won't let me.

I'm currently sitting in the great hall with my friends but I don't know what they're talking about, I can't seem to pay attention, no matter how hard I try to.

All I can think about right now is hurting myself but I can't, I promised regulus I would stop but it's all I've been thinking about, I can feel someone grab my hand. I heard regulus whisper " you okay?" I want to tell him, I should tell him but I'm not going to. " yeah I'm okay just have a headache, and it's loud in here." I said giving him a forced smile.

I hate lying to him but I hate talking about it more. I can feel my chest getting tighter and my hands getting sweaty. I need to get out of here."I'm gonna go to my dorm." I said quickly grabbing my stuff. Regulus asked "do you want me to come with you." "No I'm okay I'm just gonna lay down for a bit" I said lying straight to his face.

As soon as I get to my dorm I look for my blades. I sat on the edge of my bed finally feeling as though I could breathe. I relaxed for the first time in a month. I heard a knock on the door. " y/n can I come in?" I heard from regulus on the other side of the door. Fuck, fuck, fuck what am I supposed to do. "One sec." I said quickly I'm trying to stop the bleeding as quick as I can.

Then I heard "Alohomora" shit, all I can feel right now is my heart racing. My ears are ringing. Regulus is saying something but I can't hear him, my eyes are blurring. I can't stop shaking no matter how hard I'm trying. My ears aren't ringing as bad but I still can't hear him very well.

"Hey hey breathe, I know it's hard but I need you to breathe amour." Regulus puts my hand to his chest. "Amour listen to my heartbeat, try to copy it okay, I need you to breathe okay." Regulus looks at me as if the only thing that matters is me being safe. I don't understand, why is he not mad, i don't get it.

My heart is starting to slow down as I lay my head against him. "I'm sorry, I tried I did but I couldn't take it, I'm so sorry." I quietly said. "Shh I know it's okay, I love you so much, you know that" regulus said holding me tight.

I get this overwhelming feeling of guilt, he has enough problems, I shouldn't be adding to them. Maybe my brother was right I am the problem, I shouldn't be alive, but yet I am and I don't want to be. But how can I be alive if I don't feel like I am.

Maybe I should listen to him. "Amour" I snapped out of my thoughts and look up at him. "Yea?" I forced myself to speak, my throat felt itchy and raw. "Do you want to talk about it" Regulus asks looking at my arms. All I want to do is to crawl in to a hole and die. "No" i softly whisper.

Regulus moves to grab the first aid kid now that I've calmed down. "This is going to sting a bit okay." Regulus says while grabbing rubbing alcohol. I wince as soon as it makes contact with my skin. It hurts a little bit but I didn't really care. He wraps my arms. " do you want to lay in bed and watch a movie?" He asks softly. "Sure" i whisper softly. We lay in my bed and decide to watch the land before time. I end up falling asleep as Regulus holds me.