Hurt/comfort one shots

sᴋɪɴ ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴏɴᴇs ᴘ.2 s.ᴏ.ʙ ᴀɴᴅ ʀ.ᴊ.ʟ

Tw:struggling to eat, gagging, almost having a panic attack, crying, passive suicidal thoughts, accidental self harm, blood
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A few hours later

"Are you feeling any better?" Asked Remus as y/n came down the stairs. Y/n lightly shook her head, anxious thinking about eating. "Pup I know it will be hard but if you don't eat it will kill you" Sirius said holding her face in his hands.

All Sirius could think about was how nobody noticed but than he thought about how he hid his eating habits in 5th year, he knew that it was hard to notice if your not looking for the signs.

"Petite étoile do you want to try to eat some soup or do you want to start with crackers!" Sirius asked nervous, he knew that one wrong word and it would end horribly. "S-Soup" y/n rasped. She felt ill, but she knew they were trying to help but it was making her feel overwhelmed.

"I'll make it, do you want chicken noodle?" Remus asked, putting down his book. "mhm" y/n felt like she was about to vomit. "Would you like some hot chocolate?" Remus Suggested lightly. "mhm, t-thank you" y/n said bouncing her leg up and down. "I'm proud of you cub" Remus told her while turning on the stove.

Y/n couldn't fathom why he's proud of her when not even a few hours ago he found out that she had a eating disorder. She thought he had to be fucking with her, how could he possibly be proud of her. She wanted him to say something other than he was fucking proud of her.

A part of herself wanted him to yell, cry, be angry at her about what she has done yet he's proud she's allowing them to help. Not that she had much choice, she knew that in the end it could kill her but she didn't care, she kinda hoped it would. She hated thinking about how her fathers would react finding out about how she feels about that but she couldn't bring herself to not.

"Do you want to do something while we wait?" Sirius suggested pulling y/n out of her thoughts. "What would you like to do?" Y/n asked rubbing her sweaty hands on her pants. "We can play a game, would you like to play jenga?" Sirius asked.

"Mhm" said y/n while laying her head down on the table. "Here you go cub" Remus stated sitting her hot chocolate on the table in front of her. "I put a little bit of cinnamon in it just how you like it" Remus told her kissing the top of her head.

"Thank you" she whispered, her voice came out rough. "Always" Remus told her before going back in the kitchen to stir the soup. Y/n shakily grabbed the mug. She zoned out thinking about all the calories in the mug she was holding.

Sirius walked back in the dining room, he can see that she's zoned out which worries him. He knew that during times like this the worst place to be is in your own head. "Pup?" Sirius asked putting his hand on her shoulder. Y/n slightly jumped.

"Hm" y/n didn't even realize he came back in the room. "You okay?" Sirius asked knowing the answer. "Just feeling kinda overwhelmed" y/n knew that he would know if she lied so she saw no point in it.

"The soup is almost done" Sirius lightly told her. Y/n's whole body felt hot, she didn't want to eat "pup I know it's hard but why don't you try at least a couple of bites, okay?" Sirius suggested seeing the panic in y/n's eyes. "o-okay" she was nervous, she knew that he can see that but she couldn't bring herself to mind.

"It's done, I'm going to make you a small bowl okay" Sirius told her rubbing her upper back. All y/n could do was nod her head, she didn't feel strong enough to speak. She mindlessly started picking at her hands trying to control her breathing.

Her hands felt itchy, she was scratching at them not paying attention. she felt a slight pain in her hands. It made her feel more in control of herself. Sirius walked back in the room seeing what she was doing.

He immediately put the bowl down and reached for her blooded hands. "Pup" Sirius rasped crouching down in front of her. Sirius started to rub her upper arm trying to calm her down. Y/n was slowly becoming more aware of her surroundings again.

Her hands felt sticky. She looked down and saw them red and bloody, her eyes closed tightly realizing that she did it trying to calm herself down. "Have you done this before?" Sirius asked her looking at how she reacted, he noticed she didn't look surprised but sad.

"Sometimes, it helps ground me when I get anxiety or panic attacks" y/n whispered ashamed. Sirius didn't say anything, he just tightly wrapped his arms around her, softly running his hands through her hair kissing the top of her head.

Sirius got up to go grab the first aid kit. When he came back he saw that she put her head in between her knees. He sat down beside her. "I'm not mad, or disappointed, I just want to help you feel better pup" Sirius softly told her while grabbing her hands.

Y/n's eyes immediately got glossy. Sirius started cleaning her hands. Remus walked in in dining room, he didn't expect what he saw. He looked horrified, he immediately knew what happened. Remus walked behind y/n giving her a kiss on the forehead.

When Sirius was done wrapping her hands he got up to put the first aid kit away. "Cub can you try just a few bites, I know you don't want to but can you try?" Remus hesitantly asked. Y/n weakly nodded her head.

She shakily grabbed the bowl. Her leg bounced up and down, she couldn't sit still. She hesitantly grabbed the spoon, she felt nauseous, she slowly put the spoon to her mouth, as soon as the soup hit her tongue she gagged. She felt like throwing up. Remus immediately started rubbing her back trying to help her.

"Take your time, it's okay" Remus reassured her. His stomach clenched, it pained him seeing her like this. Y/n hesitantly tried to eat again. When it hits her tongue this time she immediately swallowed knowing if she didn't she would gag.

"I'm so proud of you, you're doing so well" Remus told her while brushing his hands through her hair. She took a few more bites until she felt like if she ate anymore she would throw up.

"Do you want to go lay down, you're probably tired after this" Sirius suggested, he knew even though she just woke up that she was mentally and physically exhausted. Y/n lightly nodded her head, getting out of the chair to go upstairs.

When she got to her bed she immediately fell asleep exhausted from what happened.