Sweet obsession

5

It's weekend, finally i don't have to wake up early, i can focus on myself today, going on a cute date with myself would be lovely, maybe i ll visit Dani too.
I woke up at 1 pm, never felt better, i put on some nice clothes and go in the city..ah my keys, i should've take care of it and buy some news.i guess i m taking the..wait a minute, i can call Tom..but nah. It's my day off.
I took the bus..i felt watched the whole time..i wasn't wearing anything inappropriate or some heavy makeup up, so who is watching me?
I look around the bus and no one was..maybe i m crazy. Should i go back to therapy? Nah, i can't afford it now.

I arrived in the city, a beautiful sunny day, i usually hate sunny days but since it's "my day" i will try my best to enjoy it.
I drink a coffee, eat something, go shopping..still felt followed. Maybe a stalker..maybe a Tom fan..
I called Tom because i was kinda scared..i heard a phone ringing the same time i called, but shortly the ring was off and Tom still haven't answered so i texted him.

"Tom, i think someone it's following me..maybe some creepy fans of you! I m kinda scared..answer as fast as you see this message please!!"
Shortly Tom called me.
"Victoria.." his voice was sleepy as fuck.
"Tom, did you just woke up?"
"Yeah..are you dead?"
"What?"
"Where are you?"
"In Pizdamatii"
"I m coming riiight nooow. Love you!"
Is he drunk or what?

He came with a brand new car, a huge black car. Honestly i didn't like it at all, tho i looked so expensive.
"Vic! Get in."
"New car?"
"What? Yeah..it's a gift."
From who? Aisha?
"Oh, don't tell me it was your birthday."
"No, no, a friend give it to me"
What kind if friend give someone a car as a gift.
"It looks nice. It fits you."
"You mean..big?" He said smirking
"I meant attention screaming"
Why did i say that?
"Mhm."
Oh please, don't be mad at me Tommy.
"So who was following you?"
"I m not sure..i didn't said someone was following me..i felt like it, tho i m not sure."
"Don't worry, your superman came to save you"
"Oh Tom, are you busy?"
"Maybe..what do you need liebling?"
It sounds awful.
"Can we go visit Dani?"
His face changed when i mentioned her name..he give me the exact same feelings Raskcolnikov to the people questioning him(crime and punishment) wich was ..fear, guilt and anger.
"So?"
"Yeah, sure..i ll cancel my date with Aisha"

You ll do what??

"No Tom, if you re busy don't ruin your plans for me"
"Thanks ."
Fuck you Tom! Fuck Aisha too.
"What were you doing alone in the mall? Or were you waiting for a date?"
"No, i was just enjoying my free time."
"Cool."
Again, that cold as ice, careless expression.
"Did i wake you up?"
"Mhm..but hearing you first thing in the morning was nice"

Nice?! You should've said it was "the great thing that ever happened to you"

"Cool." I gave him the same cold expression.
"Where should i dropp you off?"
Oh tommy, don't say that yet..come on.
"To *one of my other friend place*"
"Who live here?"
"A friend"
He drive there as fast as he could , he was so hot driving like that...tho i made me so sad seeing how fast he wanted to get ride of me.
He was driving so fast the he almost crashed, he got angry and swear the other driver in german. Damn it was so hot.
"Hey Tom, calm down..we don't need to hurry" i said smiling.
He said nothing but kept driving.

Is he bipolar?

He dropped me there, he didn't hug me, neither look at me just said goodbye and left.
Does he hate Dani? I have to find out more.
This wasn't "my friend place" it was my exs place, Kirk.
He always help me, tho he is a little abusive..
i need to know more about Tom, and he knows it all.

"Who is this?" He said behind the door.
"Victo-" i couldn't even finish my sentence cuz he opened the door.
"What do you want "babe"?"
I walked inside "help me Kirk, i feel like there it's something rotten about this guy i work with. I need to know."
"What's his name?"
"Tom kaulitz."
He smirked."you have to pay first."
He meant sex.
"After you give me the info"
"Come back tomorrow, i got you "babe""

Fuck him and Tom and Aisha too!
What is Tom hiding? Oh yea! Bill! He knows, i mean they re twins so he knows...how do i get information out of Bill now? Shit.

I called him.
"Hey Bill, it's me Vic..do you think you can come over?"
"Sure, it's everything all right?"
"Yeah, i ll tell you when you get here"

He came as fast as he could. It was fast tho. Not even a half hour.
"Soo?" He asked sitting into the couch.
"I wanted to talk to someone..i m not quite well and i don't have anyone to talk to"

First step it's:
Getting Bill to love and trust me.
How do i do it? Play victim. It's simple, if people think you re fragile and broke they'll love you, thinking they ll be the one to fix and heal you.

"I know we ..didn't had the closest relationship in the past Bill..but i really need to talk to someone.."
"Yes, sure! Tell me all Vic."
"I have bpd.."
"Bpd?"
"It's an mental illness..it's complicated..and sometimes i have this urge to do bad stuff..Dani was helping me getting through it, but now since she s gone i have no one else.."
"I understand Vic, how can i help you?"
"Can i hug you?" i said with tears in my eyes.

Ido have bpd, and i m a person who can cry easily.

"Sure!" He said hugging me, i hugged him back and hold him close.
"What's wrong Vic?"
"Everything. My job, Dani, my love life , my family life..everything. My parents are getting divorced, i lost my job, Dani is sick and..i feel lonely"

I have to use everything i have to make myself look vulnerable...not mention Tom tho...he is my target so i would be a bad idea.

"Vic, i m so sorry to hear that..i m here for you. Whatever you need."
I hugged him tight and cry(like a few tears) in his arms.
I wipe my tears and blow my nose.
"Thank you Bill..without someone there for me ..i ll be chaos it self."

He made me a tea, we talked about a lot of stupid little stuff, we laugh...he was really kind and funny, it makes me sad i have to play him like that.
Fuck! I really enjoy his company.

After some hours he had to leave so i walked him to the door.
"Thank you again Bill, i really did enjoy your company..you re so much fun, not like you brother."
"Oh yeah haha, don't worry about Tom, he is just..a bitch, if he ever hurt you, he didn't meant it."
"No, it was..just a one night thing, i m not worried ab-"
"Oh really? He said he really likes you, he never talked like this about any girls, i m sorry to hear that"
"I didn't know he thinks of me like that..it's nice to hear."

Got it. First time i ever brought Tom into our conversation and Bill is already giving me useful information.
God, i love this guy.

"But i thought he had a girlfriend-"
"Let ne guess, Aisha?"
"Yeah, who is she?"
"Don't worry about her, Tom..let's say he almost hate her, but she in the other hand its in love with Tom. He usually use her..maybe he used her to get you jealous."
"What. He did that? I m going to kill him."
For real.
"Haha, goodbye Vic."

Son of a bitch!
He did all that to get me jealous? Fine Tom, i m going to play your game.