Sweet obsession

10

I woke up in Tom's sheets,his parfum was all over the room.
Sadly, he wasn't there but he left me some pills , tree kind , i took them even tho i didn't know what they were . He also left me some pancakes and coffee.

One of the pancakes was bitten and the cup of coffee was half.

I eat what he left while i search around his hotel room..i wanna see if he s hiding something...anything.

All i could found was some porn tapes, condoms and ..are those my panties?!
I think he have them from the day before yesterday.

Weird that he wants to keep them..if i take them home now maybe he ll notice and he ll know i search around his room..i ll let them here.

I walked to the kitchen where i found Tom talking on the phone. He smiled at me and walked away..he was talking german again.

I regret so much choosing not to study german..

He came back after 30 mi.
"Morning liebling."
"Morning Tom."
"How was your sleep?"
"Great...yours?"
"Great too! The manager called, he wanted to talk to you." He said as he was dressing up.
"Where are you hurry to?"
"I have an interview."

How? I should've known..i don't remember planning anything. Maybe i should go to work today.

"He saaaid..well..he was mad at you Victoria, you should go to work."
"Yeah, i will. Can you drive me there?"
"I m kinda busy..you see."
"Yeah sure, i ll call my dad."

Shit! I forgot i have my keys now. Tho the car it's at my place. I can use my father personal driver to drive me to work, his car its nicer anyway.

Tom left, so did i. We haven't spoken a word about last night..i hope he is not disappointed in me..i mean in the way i..i hope he enjoyed himself.

I arrived at work(wearing something else than Tom's clothingthe driver bought me some from my place).

Everything was nice, no one scream at me..no one was mad.
That's how they always react when they find out who my father is.

I cutted all the connected with my family, i erased all the line that drive me to them, i ve changed my name..not my family one tho(such a stupid idea). My mother loves my father's name so much, i kept it for her.

My real name is Josephine but i ll never use that name again, neither will my father, or other relatives of mine.
I like that he respects my choices...my father i mean. He used to disrespect me a lot when i was in high school.

The director came to me and apologized for degrading me to this post, he offered me my old post, but because i knew it was my father work i turned him down.
I want people to see and want me for who i am..not for how thick my father's wallet is.

I drive myself to the hotel my father was staying..i wanted to see if he got any information about Dani, maybe he founded her. I bet her crazy father took her out of that hospital as fast as he heard i m not there anymore.
When i arrived, he was yelling at someone through the phone. He is always like this..angry and mad.

When he saw me he immediately turn off the phone and throw it away,even though the person on the phone was still talking.

"Mon bébé! Je suis si contente de te voir!"
My father likes to show off himself often ,talking in French with me.

I hugged him..i need information so i have to be the perfect little precious daughter.
"Me too Papa!"

He loves when i call him papa.

He kissed my forehead and look down to me smiling.
"What's new? Are you and Tom a thing?"
"No papa, i told you we re just friends."
Why does he care about Tom? He never cared about any of my exs.
"Si tu le dis" he said happily picking his phone up.
"What's up with Dani?"
He stopped for a minute, his whole body freezes, he looks scared and terrified by my question.
He sit down and pat the spot next to him. I sit there, he place his hand on my knee and caress it gently.

"Fucking tell me!"
"Shes...gone, darling."

My whole body stopped moving, i was falling into a black hole wich was eating me alive. My hands started shaking and for a moment i lost my mind.

"What do you mean she's gone? Is she dead?"
He just nodded and looked into my eyes, like he was expecting me to break down.

I was feeling like i haven't ate in months, like i runned 10 miles and my body runned out of energy.
I wanted to cry, to scream.

"How did she died?" I said with a trembling voice.
"My dear.."
"How did she died dad?!" I rise my voice at him.
"Suicide."

I took a deep breath and hold back my tears with all the power i had. I excuse myself and left in a hurry, i took my father car and drive away. I was time to start a new beginning..without Dani.

I didn't allowed myself to think about what happened while i was driving. I was still in shock, still shaking. I turned on the music hoping my head will shut up, but it didn't.
I wanted to crash i wanted a huge car to crash into me and smash my body before catching a fire that would burn my body so me and her will meet again. In a word where there is no drugs, no alcohol, no boys. Just me and her.

When i arrived in the middle of nowhere i stopped the car and got out. I processed the information i was given.

Tears started falling off my cheek, my hands started shaking again..my pulse was getting harder.

Why is she dead? She promised me she' ll never leave me alone.We made a promise!

She was all i had, even if she was crazy, she was my girl. I built this new life with her, she was my soulmate..even if she had problems with drugs, alcohol and sex. She was my girl. My heart.

I hope i m dreaming.

After some times of crying and screaming i called my father to check if this it's real. My heart wouldn't let me believe she committed suicide

"Darling-"
"Did she left a letter?"
"Wh-"
"Did she left a letter dad?"
"Y-yeah she did why?"

She didn't killed herself. She was murdered.

Me and Dani made some letters just in case one of us break the promise and commit.
He buried them in places with special meaning for both of us and promised each other that we ll open them only if ..it happens.

Why would anyone kill Dani? She was a sweetheart..an sinful sweetheart, but still a sweetheart.
I will find out and beat the shit out of that person. I ll destroy their lives, no matter who she is.

First Kirk, then Dani..someone it's killing my loved one.

What if they kill Tom too?