I Found My Clarity Under Gold Skies (Zedd and Martin Garrix)

Chapter 5

*Anton's POV*

I invited her to go out and everything was going perfectly well until I talk about my feelings. I'm so stupid. I should've known that she would say that. I hate myself. And I also kissed her. I hate myself even more. Why I didn't think about it first? She probably hates me now. Great. Anton Zaslavski scored one point on ruining future relationships.

*flashback*

"Ma'am, we're here." I announced, smiling, when we arrived at one of the fanciest restaurants in Los Angeles. I offered Ash my arm and we entered the restaurant.

We sat down in a table and I ordered the food. I thought that was the perfect time to tell her. "Ash, I have to tell you something..." I was nervous. "Since the first time I saw you, I fell in love with you and I couldn't stop thinking about you the whole set and I was so excited after the show for you to come backstage. I know we met yesterday but I really like you and..." I was speaking so fast that I wasn't breathing.

"Wow calm down dude I don't want you to die from a heart attack." I would laugh if I wasn't so nervous. "Huh, Anton don't you think that's too early for a relationship? You barely know me. Let's get to know each other first okay?" I should've known she would say that. I'm so stupid.

"Yeah, you are right. I don't know you so well and you might don't know some things about me since most part of my life is public and you're a big fan. Well, I don't think I should call you fan anymore. We're friends now. Aren't we?" I asked trying to smile.

She smiled to me. God I love that smile. "Sure!" Ashley was so happy that mede me forget about my sadness for a while.

I didn't know what to say. Neither she. It was completely silent for a while and it's not good for a date. Thanks God the food arrived but we ate in silence and I payed for the dinner.

Later, we got into the car and I started driving. The drive was silent and the radio was off. I stopped when the traffic light turned red. "Hey, why are you so upset?" She said suddenly.

"Nothing." I replied not wanting to make her upset because of what she said. "You can tell me if you want." I was lost in my thoughts when she put her hand on mine. I felt something that I couldn't explain. "Nothing important." I said and the traffic light turned green and a few minutes later we arrived at her house. The lights were off I would say that her parents weren't home or she lived by herself.

"We're here." I said. "I really liked going out out with you. But before you go I need to do something." I got closer to her and softly kissed her lips. I let go and smiled a little. "Sorry for all the weirdness." I looked down hoping Ashley doesn't see me blushing. "But I like you so much and I really really want to be with you. I understand that we don't know each other..." I cut myself off because I don't want to force her to date me.

"Anton..." She looked at me. I knew it. She has no words. She hates me now. I started walking to my car. "ANTON, WAIT!" But I didn't look back I just entered in my car and drove off.

*end of flashback*

I arrived at my house and Arkadi and Ryan were playing Mario Kart 8.

"Hey bro wanna join?" Arkadi said pausing the game. "No, that's okay. I'm going to be in my room." I said and went upstairs. I entered in my bedroom and it was so messy that I decided to go to the studio. I sat down and started playing Spectrum on the piano. I was so concentrated that I didn't notice that Arkadi was in the door. "What happened?" He asked.

"What?" He got in and sat on a chair near me. "You know, the date. What happened? It wasn't very good I can say. You look disappointed." He put his hand on my shoulder. "I'm your brother. You can tell me."

I looked at him. "I ruined everything. And she said that we don't know each other very well and not to rush the things but I kissed her and she probably hates me now." A tear rolled down my face. "I don't know how to speak about my feelings without ruining everything."

"You love her so much. Don't you?" Arkadi hugged me. "I do." I hugged him back. "You need to call her and explain everything. I'm sure she doesn't hate you." He smiled and left me alone in the studio.

*Martijn's POV*

Today was a boring day. I went to my studio at 9 am and finished a track with Tiësto. After that, I made my way back home and I arrived there at 2 pm and I slept the whole afternoon. It was 9 pm when I woke up and I don't know why I just had the feeling that I should text Ashley. So I just did.

(Martin's bold)

"Hello there. How was the dinner? :)"
"Not so good. What are you doing?"
"Oh. That sucks :/. Nothing and u?"
"Nothing. Wanna come?"
"Yeah sure. I'll be there in 15."

She texted me her address and I drove to her house. All the lights were off except for one. I would say that Ashley was at home alone. I knocked the door and 2 minutes later she opened it with a crying face and I hugged her.

"Let's go upstairs." She said closing the door behind me and holding my hand and I just followed her to her bedroom. "Where are your parents?" I asked. "They went out to have dinner and hang out with some of their friends. They won't come back before 1 am."

"Oh. So, what happened tonight?" She was crying again. I saw a tear roll down her face and I wiped it off with my thumb. "Everything was perfect and Anton said that he liked me and I told him that we barely know each other and that we should get to know each other's first. He got sad and he acted very weirdly and then Anton kissed me and a few minutes later he apologized for the kiss and drove off. I tried to talk to him but he didn't heard me." Ashley laid her head on my chest and cried.

"It's okay. Sometimes Anton is an insecure guy and don't think before doing something. I'm sure he didn't want to hurt you." I said running my hand though her hair. "Do you think so?" She looked at me. "Yeah I do." I smiled.

"I'm not sure Martin. He seemed so... Angry and upset." Ash started crying again. "I think he hates me." I don't like to see people crying. "Ashley, listen. He doesn't hate you. He's just nervous with himself. Don't blame yourself for a thing that you didn't do." I said seriously.

"Thanks for coming Martin. You're a good friend." She smiled. Something inside me told me that was the right thing to do. But at the same time I thought it was wrong. I couldn't resist so I kissed her. My lips touched her lips softly and I put my hands on her waist and she put her hands on my neck. I don't know what happened next. For me, it never ended. We stood there, kissing. Forever.

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(A/N)

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