Soulmate

Chapter 3

I tried to leave. I promise I tried. But i cant. I just cant. Ive been following B for days. Hiding at places he wouldn't catch me spying at him. Why cant he find someone to love? Most of the girls in his school are staring at him with jaws dropped flat on the floor. With their sparkly stupid eyes that don't go anywhere when he passes by but stays with him. Wait, am I jealous? No, Im not. I shouldnt be. Its been weeks now and he still doesn't suspect anything about anyone following him. I miss him. I know I do. But I shouldn't go to him after I left him. I know I mean so much to him, but knowing that Ill permanently go above eventually, makes no sense if I would still stay with him. There are days I wish I could just die again because of the pain Im feeling. Its unbearable. A broken heart. Even souls have heart. Souls are practically human too, except that they don't have a body of their own, and that they can get answers that could help them especially when they think hard. We can see and hear anything. We know things, even the things you never knew existed. Im not immortal, like it or not, I'd go above by the age of 40. I've been thinking while walking in a place I don't know where. If you want someone that's important to you be happy, their happiness is more important than yours and, I think B will eventually be happy if I leave him now. So I stayed at the park, I guess Id be sleeping here later. Ive been sitting here for almost 5 hours now. I haven't seen B for hours and I feel really bad. It's all going to be okay Jade. Remember that. Maybe I'll go above tomorrow. I already said what I needed to say. There's no reason to be here anymore. Once I go above, there's no turning back. It's getting really dark and cold now.
"Where on earth have you been?! Ive been looking for you for hours. You don't know how worried I was Jade."
"B, how did you find me here? You knew I was following you? Wait. Lets go talk in your apartment. There are people here. Please stop being mad."
We walked in silence. But now, it wasn't just because people are around. We both have questions that needed answers. How did he know? If he knew, he never talked to me. Why? We arrived at B's apartment and I sat on the stairs, watching him eat his dinner. We still didn't speak to each other. He still looks mad at me. Again. Why is this guy always mad at me? He threw a punch in the wall that made me fall one step down the stairs.
"Damn it, Jade! I thought you were gone!"
"Really?! Is that why you went on living your life without talking to me?! All this time you knew I was with you but you didn't even approach me. Not even once B!"
"Would you stay if I told you I knew? Wouldn't you leave me again?" He is right. "I went for days not talking to you Jade because I don't want you to be gone.  My heart was melted by his words.