Nessa Barrett imagines

I wanna die

Nessa wrote I wanna die for me and as bad as it sounds it's not like that but she's letting me get to listen to the whole song before anybody else does
Nessa- you ready to hear it baby
Paige- i can't wait ml
She clicks plays
Nessa singing:
You're my Jesus, you're my God
The one before was just a fraud
He shut me in a tiny box
And told me I was hard to love
I wake up at night, screamin'
I'm scared to shut my eyes, demons
But with your arms around me, I'm as safe as can be
Never been this happy, so
I wanna die when you kiss me slowly
I'd be just fine if my blood stopped flowin'
My, oh my, I'm terrified
I know the rest of my life won't compare to these nights with you
I wanna die when you touch my body
Every time you stop, my skin starts crawlin'
My, oh, my, you made my life
So, someone better read my rights
I wanna die, yeah, yeah
I wanna die, yeah, yeah
I wanna die, yeah, yeah
I wanna die, I wanna die
Oh, you saved me from a straight-up crisis
Wanna drink you like wine, Dionysos
Everybody in my life got prices
Too high to pay, uh-oh
I still wake up at night, screamin'
I'm scared to shut my eyes, demons
But with your arms around me, I'm as safe as can be
Never been this happy, so
I wanna die when you kiss me slowly
I'd be just fine if my blood stopped flowin'
My, oh, my, I'm terrified
I know the rest of my life won't compare to these nights with you
I wanna die when you touch my body
Every time you stop, my skin starts crawlin'
My, oh, my, you made my life
So, someone better read my rights
I wanna die, yeah, yeah
I wanna die, yeah, yeah
I wanna die, yeah, yeah
I wanna die, I wanna die
I wanna die
I wanna die
I wanna die, I wanna die
The music stops
Nessa- you like it
Paige- i love it baby it means so much to me that you wrote that for me
Nessa- and I mean every single word that i sang in that but that song doesn't show how much I love you it just shows a little part of it
Day of pretty poison album release
Paige- are you nervous
Nessa- yeah I'm nervous I'm just glad that you get to listen to all of these songs
Paige- can you show me all of them
Nessa- yeah here baby take a listen
She goes to the first song
Nessa- ok so this song is pretty poison
She clicks plays
Nessa singing:
I could tell the real story, but I know you wouldn't listen
I've tried to tell it many times, but you always go and twist it, yeah
Nearly every morning that I cry
Waking up to words to throwing knives, mmm
Swear I'm looking in the mirror, but I'm seeing someone different
Looking at you lick your lips, you think you know me
Making faces at me while you paint mine for me
Say my name, say my name like you know it's holy
Everybody wants a taste
But the truth is hard to chase
Pretty poison in my mind and in my veins (Mmm)
If my name is in your throat
Your words are dead, I hope you choke
But in the end, I hope you know, I hopе you know
I'm in your veins like pretty poison
You think you'rе kissing on my scars while you rip 'em wide open
You sugarcoat your sharp teeth while you're praying on me broken
You couldn't hate me more than I hate myself
Add it to my wrist, I can go to Hell
If you think you want me dead, go ahead, here's a token
Everybody wants a taste
But the truth is hard to chase
Pretty poison in my mind and in my veins
If my name is in your throat
Your words are dead, I hope you choke
But in the end, I hope you know, I hope you know
I'm in your veins like pretty poison
I'm in your veins like pretty poison
I'm in your veins like pretty poison
Paige- that's so good my love
Nessa- ready to hear the next one
Paige- of course baby
Nessa- ok so the next one is called keep me afraid
She clicks plays
Nessa singing:
I'm in the corner of your cage
Mascara running down my face
The door is open, but I'll stay
You think you can keep me and keep me afraid
You're twisting screws inside my head
I won't just lie down and play dead
Take a good look at my face, you think you can keep me?
Scared to fall asleep at night when you're by my side
I don't know why, it doesn't feel right
Hide behind your poker face, you do it every day
I know you lie, so I fake a smile, ah
'Cause in the end (The end), I know you'll get (You'll get)
Everything you gave
I'm in the corner of your cage
Mascara running down my face
The door is open, but I'll stay
You think you can keep me and keep me afraid
You're twisting screws inside my head
I won't just lie down and play dead
Take a good look at my face, you think you can keep me?
But I'm not afraid
Da, da-da, da-da, da-da, da-dum
Da, da-da, da-da, da-da, da-dum, dum
Better hope and plead and pray I keep your secret safe
You better run 'cause I got the gun
I don't need receipts to show the things that we both know
'Cause I got the scars to prove who you are, ah
'Cause in the end (The end), I know you'll get (You'll get)
Everything you gave
I'm in the corner of your cage
Mascara running down my face
The door is open, but I'll stay
You think you can keep me and keep me afraid
You're twisting screws inside my head
I won't just lie down and play dead
Take a good look at my face, you think you can keep me?
But I'm not afraid
Da, da-da, da-da, da-da, da-dum
Da, da-da, da-da, da-da, da-dum, dum
Nessa- ready for the next song
Paige- yes ofc baby
Nessa- ok so this one is called I hope your miserable until your dead it's about josh
Paige- ok
She plays it
Nessa singing:
I still hear your voice, tryna rip my world to pieces
But I'm not your toy, you can break and leave there bleeding
The damage is done, moving on if I'm ready or not
But you drag me through mud, here I come, now I'm petty as fuck
(I'm petty as fuck)
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you be yourself and lose your friends
I hope they call you out for shit you said
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
I hope you're miserable
So fucking miserable
I hopе you're miserable
I hopе you're miserable until you're dead
Been keeping your shit to myself
If I said it out loud, you'd be burning in Hell
And I can make everybody hate you
Almost as much as you hate yourself
But I won't 'cause (I won't), I know (I know)
One day it'll come around, but fuck you for now
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you be yourself and lose your friends (Lose your friends)
I hope they call you out for shit you said (You said)
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
The damage is done, moving on if I'm ready or not
But you drag me through mud, here I come, now I'm petty as fuck
(I'm petty as fuck)
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you be yourself and lose your friends
I hope they call you out for shit you said (You said)
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
I hope you're haunted by all your regrets
I hope they fuck you up inside your head
You know I don't forgive, I don't forget
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you be yourself and lose your friends
I hope they call you out for shit you said
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
Nessa- next song is called grave and it's about you this whole album is basically about you except I hope your miserable until your dead
Paige- oh ok baby
She presses play
Nessa singing:
You kiss my scars, down the center of my left wrist
Never knew how much I needed it
I see stars, the good kind
Not the kind that I saw when I was three feet under
The reaper got my number
You're my deep end, keep me breathing
Heart held on with glue
The only thing keeping me out of the grave is you
Here comes a crisis
Cross out my eyelids
Barely alive, it's true
The only thing keeping me out of the grave is you
My dreams are violent
Feels likе my mind spins
Barely alive, it's true
Thе only thing keeping me out of the grave is you
Everybody else can go to Hell, I don't care what they say
They can shut their fucking mouths, yeah
Oh, this ain't no show-and-tell
Yeah, the shit that I can't help
But I feel better when my lips are on your mouth
Let me keep 'em on your mouth 'cause
You're my deep end, keep me breathing
Heart held on with glue
The only thing keeping me out of the grave is you
Here comes a crisis
Cross out my eyelids
Barely alive, it's true
The only thing keeping me out of the grave is you
My dreams are violent
Feels like my mind spins
Barely alive, it's true
The only thing keeping out of the grave is you
(Ah-ah-ah-ah) The only thing keeping out of the grave is you
(Ah-ah-ah-ah) The only thing keeping out of the grave is you
Nessa- ok next song is scare myself ok I lied this song is about my BPD
She presses play
Nessa singing:

Thoughts keep on racing, one by one
I don't know who they're running from
Biting my lips until they bleed
Symptom of living life with me
'Cause I'm scared of the monsters that I swear are under my bed
Scared that they might just be all in my head
Scared that I'm dreaming and already dead, mm-mm
And I'm terrified of the shadows that follow me home
Afraid that they'll get me when I'm all alone
Look in the mirror, I see someone else
Sometimes, I even scare myself (Oh)
Ain't it kinda funny how
Nobody can cut me down like I can?
I drag myself through hell and (Oh)
What's it gonna be today?
How am I gonna 'cause me pain?
I'll be damned
Sometimes, I even scare myself
Leave me all alone with the voices
End up in the wrong kind of places
Every day's a dark situation
Trying not to oop with the poison
Paint my face 'cause the real me is pointless
Do my nails just to rip me to pieces
Lose my mind 'cause I don't wanna keep it
Sometimes, I even scare myself (Oh)
Ain't it kinda funny how
Nobody can cut me down like I can?
I drag myself through hell and (Oh)
What's it gonna be today?
How am I gonna 'cause me pain?
I'll be damned
Sometimes, I even scare myself
'Cause I'm scared that the monsters that I swear are under my bed
Scared that they might just be all in my head
Scared that I'm dreaming and already dead
Sometimes, I even scare myself (Oh)
Ain't it kinda funny how
Nobody can cut me down like I can?
I drag myself through hell and (Oh)
What's it gonna be today?
How am I gonna 'cause me pain?
I'll be damned
Sometimes, I even scare myself
Sometimes, I even scare myself
Sometimes, I even scare myself
Sometimes, I even scare myself
Nessa- you've already heard I wanna die so I'm gonna play sincerely and this is the last song and it has a voicemail of my mom
She presses play
Nessa singing + her moms voicemail at the end:

Guess I'm still not in the grave
Pretty far from the cage you left me
Like I said, I'm not afraid
But for a minute, I was lost and empty
And I admit that I was scared as hell
Of the things that I might do to myself
But now I'm happy
Yeah, I'm happy, I'm happy now
But seriously, yo
I'm happy that you're, you're finally happy
You just have to, you know, follow your heart
And be with the people who feel right to your soul
You know, 'cause all the people who say stuff, they don't matter
You know that, they don't know the real you
They don't know what's really going on
Paige- those are so good baby now let's get ready for the release
We start getting ready for the release and then once we are done we leave and go to where it's being held and then she releases the songs and we stay for awhile and then everybody leaves and we go home and go to sleep