Home Alone

Part 2....

The noises around me were engulfing me.
Am I in heaven?
I thought.
I opened my eyes when I found a woman Slouching on the bed I was laying on.
Is this an angel?
I again thought.
No...
Even though I didn't see the face, I felt the familiar feeling that I felt from someone I knew.
It was my mother.

"Mom...."
I said slowly as there was an oxygen mask on my face.
I was saying it very quietly I presume coz she didn't hear me.
I tried to move my hands, but it hurt like hell.
But I tried my best. I want to tell her that I am fine. I wanted to tell her that I did what a big sis should do. I wanted to ask if I did the right thing.
I slowly placed my fingers on her head and tried to caress it as much as I could.
She felt it.
She slowly turned he head toward me as if she was hoping that she isn't dreaming.
Little by little and then she saw me, with big puffy eyes.
It could be understood that she wasn't doing anything other than crying for days.
She looked at me with wide eyes.
And I tried to smile at her.
"Mom..."
I said.
And she started tearing up.
She was crying and crying just like my brother.
She put her hand on her mouth made such a heartbreaking emotion that could easily tell that she was too happy.
A few drops of water splattered from my eyes too.
She hold my hands and suddenly started apologizing.
"I am sorry!
I am sorry!
I am sorry!"
She said repeatedly without stopping.
The only stop she make was to take in oxygen from her mouth as her nose was already jammed up because of all the crying.
I knew why she was apologizing to me.
And that made me feel worse.
I slightly shook my head telling her to stop doing that.
After seeing that she started crying harder.
I called her to come near me.
And asked her to take my oxygen mask off for a sec.
She was hesitant but seeing the persistent look on my face she came near and took the mask off.
I nodded to her to come close and gently said in her ear.
"Don't..... apologies.....I did it for my.....brother...."
I said.
She looked at me for a minute.
Somehow, I could see that she was proud of me.
"Yes! Yes! You did it for your brother!
My daughter.
Thank you, my daughter!"
She said with a wide smile while wiping the tears from her face.
Seeing her angelic smile I feel comforted.
Suddenly, My energy started depleting and I began to close my eyes.
Seeing my shutting eyes my mother shouted my name I wanted to respond but I couldn't.
She shouted again with tears rolling out of her eyes again.
She went out of the room while running.
Her this much effort made me happy.
It felt like she is my mom.
When my father bought her in front of me for the first time, I was shocked.
She was in front of me with a child behind her.
That time for the first time I came to know that she was my new mother and my new brother.
They were my new family.

I thought she wouldn't like me but she loved me as much as other mothers do.
She made me feel a mother's love that I never felt before as my mother died while giving birth.
She was the one who let me feel a whole new kind of love.
That's why I didn't regret anything.
Seeing her one last time, I am alright with my death now.
I am dying while saving her child.
No, I am dying while saving my brother.
We didn't have anything in common but we had a common mother.
And that was enough to lay my life for him.

I love you is what I want to yell.
But I hope there is no reason for that,
Anymore.

The end.