Unwanted help Bill kaulitz x y/n fem reader

Hesitation

Y/n's pov:
When I opened my eyes I could feel I was still laying on bills shoulder which gave me butterflies thinking about how he didn't move. I stayed in the same spot laying on his shoulder for about 20 minutes then I felt him move as if he was waking up so I closed my eyes and pretend to be asleep I felt him kid his head up and look down at me he then lifted my head and layed me on his lap I slightly opened my eyes because I was confused on what he was doing but then he started to rub my head which felt so nice I was sitting there wanting to look up at him and kiss him but I was hesitant so I didn't do it. After laying there for about 10 minutes bill stopped rubbing my head I felt him trying to turn my head to face him so I quickly shut my eyes when my head was facing upwards I could feel him staring at me he then said. "Are you awake?" I didn't answer because if I did he would have gotten up so I didn't answer and then I felt hin lean down closer to my face and then I slightly opened my eyes and I could see him leaning down to kiss me I got scared so I acted as if I was waking up and he shot back up acting as if he was asleep as well I sat up looked at him and saw how cute he looked asleep. I then leaned closer to him and kissed him on the cheek after I pulled away I could see his face turned red he opened his eyes and looked at me and said "what was that for?" I could tell he was confused as to why I kissed him and I said "you just looked so cute sleeping." He then turned even more red and quickly looked away from me cause me to let out a little laugh. I waited for him to look back at me and when he did, I couldn't stop looking into his eyes his beautiful brown eyes. It was like I was in a trance but I snapped back into reality after feeling his hand on my hand. I looked down to see what he was doing and then when I looked back up he was leaning in to kiss me I was frozen in shock I just sat there looking at him leaning in to kiss me. When his lips touched mine I wasn't frozen anymore and I pushed him away and got up way to fast causing me to get light headed, I slipped on something and fell and everything went black.
When I woke up I was in bills bed but there was no bill. I then slowly got up and walked into the hall looking for bill I looked in the restroom, no bill I went downstairs and checked the kitchen no bill I went to the living room no bill I was confused I wanted to cry. I just wanted to be in bills arms, I felt so bad for pushing him away I had wanted to kiss him for so long and now that I have  I felt so different as if nothing could change that feeling I was having I then went back upstairs into bills room and got one of his shirts and just hugged it his sent was on it his sent was so comforting
I layed down with his shirt in my arms and I fell asleep I was woke back up and it was dark outside. I felt eyes on me but the room was to dark to see anything so I slowly got up waking to the light switch when I went to turn on the light I felt hands on it covering the switch so I couldn't turn it on. I couldn't tell who it was I assumed it was bill but when they spoke I could tell it wasn't this voice was Sturn and angry. Even when bill was angry he never sounded like that I then went to go feel their hair I had felt thick locs then realized it was Tom. I rolled my eyes and said " can you move your hand so I can turn on the light." " no." He said I was confused as to why he wouldn't let me turn on the light so I didn't argue with him and said "fine." But after I had said that I realized he was nowhere near the door so I quickly and quietly made my way to the door. And when I got to the door I quickly said " BYE!" While laughing knowing he was trying to keep me in the room I ran downstairs into the kitchen and turned on the light and looked around for bill I saw him on the couch I didn't want to get to close because I knew he was mad that I pushed him away. I then spoke up "bill." He quickly turned his head and got up running towards me he hugged me super tight and said " y/n are you alright?" I was confused I thought he would be mad  " your not mad at me?" I said confused "mad? Why would I be mad at you?" He said with in eyebrow raised " because I pushed you away." I said while avoiding eye contact because I knew I was going to cry if I looked at him. He then straightened his stance and moved his arms from me "oh." He said in a sad tone I looked up at him and started to explain as to why I pushed him away and when I was done explaining he didn't say anything he just looked at me with a sad look. I couldn't see him like that I hated seeing him like that it hurt me so much I hated it I wanted to slap myself for making him feel so bad. My eyes started to wander down to his lips I was just staring at his lips only now realizing how soft they were and how comforting the kiss was I then looked back at his eyes which were looking into mine and then I leaned in and kissed him.

———————————————-
I hopes you guys are liking the story so far 🫶🏼🫶🏼
Word count 1k
A little shorter than the last chapter but oh well