It was sunday i was at my house reading and listening to music in bed thinking about alex and how he'd left me with out explaining anything to me, alex left about a month ago the month of his birthday (march) and he never came back. I always thought about him i still liked him i thought this was all a dream. I dreamed about him consistently and i imagine him at school i saw him i felt like i saw him. I probably was going crazy because i still loved him and missed him. I remembered all those times we texted and what he told me i really loved him. I didn't realize i was crying until my phone started ringing and my friend asked me. " heyy have you been crying what happened it sounds like your crying am i wrong?" My best friend Natasha asked when she called.
"Umm no its nothing im kinda sick thats all but what's up" i told her trying to sound more like myself
"Are you sure and nothing what's up with you how you been is everything ok?" She asked
"Yupp im fine how about you?" I told her
"Yea im just bored i don't know and i was gonna ask you are you going to the party and the dance on friday ?" She asked
I didn't feel like going but all my friends would be asking me why. They knew what had happened to me about the alex thing but they thought i was over it wich i wasn't because i missed him i didn't go to any place anymore my attitude changed i was more sad everytime and i got mad easily. I tryed not being with anyone i couldn't consentrate on anything anymore. And when ever i saw a couple together my eyes would get watery because i wish that was me and alex together.
"Umm i don't know if I'll go i don't think so there's to many people" i told her trying to make an excuse
"Alice you always went to parties you love them and to the dances to what's wrong with you what did alex do to you that made you change like this, you don't go to parties you don't talk you get mad easier, your always crying you, listen to the same song you sleep alot , you don't eat at school. What did that Poopface do to you???" She asked
"His name is alex and he didn't do anything im fine you exaggerate alot its just that i wanna stay home that day thats all" i replied hoping she'd belive me "
"Alice i think i know what's wrong with you ...your depressed." She told me
"Hahahahaha nooo im not depressed why would i be im happy everything is fine with me" i said. But i knew i felt depressed i knew i was, i changed alot ever since he left
"You are depressed and im going to help you " he said
"OMG really how how are you planning to do it?" I asked her sarcastically
"Im taking you to that party on friday and im helping you dress and do the hair and makeup to. You need to go there'll be guys there so you need to look nice." She said like if she was more like a mom than a friend
"Fine but only a little bit not the whole night " i told her because i knew that if i didn't say that she would still make me go weather i wanted to or not.
"Thank you don't you worry I'll make you look beautiful. "She said and i knew it
"Noo... thank you for worrying about me" i said to her
"Your welcome well i have to go i gotta go shopping girly we have to look good ."
"Hah ok bye and thanks again."
"Bye." She replied at last
It was pretty boring after that i couldn't stop... i just couldn't stop thinking about alex i thought it was a bad idea that i was going on a party on friday. I felt like i was betraying him like if i was cheating on him but really i kinda wasn't because he was the one that left not me.
