Is this what is called love? -Chapa De Silva-

-4-

"come out, we need to talk about something, just you and me."

Chapa gently took my hand to get me up from the chair, needless to say, a few seconds later the butterflies made their way into my stomach, fluttering here and there and evidently slamming violently against my heart that could not stop beating.
from there the panic, what can I say? I couldn't feel anything outside, just the rushing sound of my heartbeat, the strangely irregular breathing and the blood rushing through my body
I was completely fucking panicked.
I felt like I couldn't breathe and she still behind me noticed it first, took me out immediately then, taking my little finger in her fingers so she wouldn't lose sight of me.

"I see you shaking."
she said with a neutral look, trying to understand what was wrong with me at that moment

"sorry, it was sudden..please don't think I am strange."

oh, honey..actually I already thought that."
he exclaimed with a nod of a smile and detached his own fingers, leaning against the balcony railing

did she just call me honey or is this just a bad dream? that she's being ironic?

"what did you want to talk about?"
I sat down on the floor, resting my back against the railing in turn, and looked up at his, trying to regain control of my breathing slowly.

"not about anything, but you've been staring at me all night and I've seen you at school too, it doesn't seem like the first time you've seen us, you've pretty much only stared at us so far, what are you hiding?"

a hysterical giggle escaped my lips spontaneously, oh god..was I that blatant ?

"you're ironic aren't you? i'm not hiding anything..i just think you were interesting, buddy had already told me about you simply"

"well I don't believe you, you have a familiar face."
and so all of a sudden she ducked down, brought her weight on her knees and with a snap she grabbed my wrist, pulling me toward her to force me to look into her eyes, but it wasn't her usual look, she looked irritated

"your eyes, I've seen them somewhere before,
I'm not that stupid. who are you really?"

"leave me maniac!"
I shouted the first words that came to my mind at that moment when I felt myself being yanked by the arm, my heart kept beating, I had imagined this scene between us, but I couldn't have imagined it would happen this way.
I stood up quickly at that point, putting on a mock fearful expression and ran inside, closing the door behind me and taking a deep breath,
was there really a need to be so tough? i'm doing this for a good reason, i'm doing this for us....
I need a hand, schwoz needs to help me.

*the day after*

"the potion for a love binding is hard to do Skyler, you will be the one who will have to get things for me if you want no one to find out about us, you have to be careful."
the next day I immediately took advantage of an emergency so I could sneak into the Man nest, where there schwoz was already intent on waiting for me with a science book in his hands.

"Just tell me what you need, I'll get it all to you by tomorrow."

"let's start with the easy, I need 3 drops of wax, mainly from a red candle, 3 grams of mandrake root powder, a tablespoon of lemon balm leaves, a lock of hair both yours and chapa's and..what else..AH! a tablespoon of honey and 10 ml of marsala!"

"it doesn't seem too complicated to me..thank you schwoz, tomorrow at the same time I will come back with all the ingredients, I want the formula to work properly."

"yes okay , but be careful, you shouldn't mess around with these things and you know it."

"I will be careful, I promise.
And you be careful not to get caught."

having said that, I picked up my school bag again and headed for the exit, giving myself one last look around before I could walk through the door with my heart in my throat.