NOOR ~ A Tale Of Love

RUKSATHI

In the shadow of Quran,Ada was sent to her sasuraal. Ada forgave her mother,she knew in front of her Baba's anger everybody are helpless.
She knew her ammi always wanted the best for her. But what her mom said still rang in her ears .

"Mein tumhe kabhi shakh nahi kiya beta,mujhe pata hai tumhare bare mein. Meine pala hai tumhe aur mujhe meri  tarbiyath mein pura barosa hai. Aur beta agar tumhara shadi kisi galat haaton mein hota toh mein bilkul tumhara madath karti lekin Azael tumhare liye har haal mein sahi hai. Woh log tumhe acche tarah jaante hai beta. Kabhi kuch galat nahi hoga. Allah par baraosa rakho,woh sab theek karta hai".

(I never doubted you dear,I know you. I raised you and I don't have any doubts on my upbringing. And child,your marriage did not happen with a wrong man to which I have to support you. It happened with Azael who is a very good boy. They know you very well beta. Nothing will ever go wrong. Trust Allah,he does everything right).

Even though Ada wanted to know why everybody are a fan of her husband she was extremely scared.

What if he also points his finger on my character?

Will I ever be able to overcome that?

Will I be forgiven for the sins that I did not even do?

Will he trust me ?

By the time Ada was busy overthinking,they reached the Ali's mansion. Azael helped her from the car. No words were exchanged between them today. He did not want to force her too. He had a talk with Aadil and all he knew was to be patient with her and make her comfortable.

"Ammi,ham hamara mansion mein jaate hai,kal subah breakfast par milenge theek hai?" Said Azael.

(Ammi,we are going to our mansion,we will meet you guys tonight morning for breakfast okay?).

He knew that Ada was going to be more nervous with people,since there are many guests who are staying over to attend the reception tomorrow. He decided that they will meet all the guests tomorrow.

Ali's mansion consisted of two houses. One was where the whole family lives and the other one was for Azael and now for his wife too. They left one by one . Haya looked at her bestfriend guiltily. She did not know that a small joke from her side would cause her bestfriend to not talk to her anymore. Tears filled her eyes,as she left from there.

Azael led Ada to their house. It consisted of a kitchen,living room,dining,two bedrooms of their own. Ada was suprised at how beautiful the house was. Azael led her inside to their room.

"Hamara kamra, kaisa laga aapko ?" Asked Azael.

(Our room,how do you like it ?).

"Ji, acc-ha hai" said Ada nervously.

(Yes, it's ver-y ni-ce).

She couldn't understand herself. She always felt too nervous and little around her husband and she found this very weird because growing up Ada was a very outgoing and bold girl.
But she let it be because the last 3 months were very hard for her.

He nodded and was about to tell her to freshen up when Ada spoke up.

"Kya mujhe seperate kamra mil saktha hai,mujhe thodi uncomfortable lag raha hai" said Ada mustering up her courage.

(Can I get a separate room,I feel a little uncomfortable here).

She was hella scared now. He knew what men expect from their wives. But Ada was not the girl who would give her body just  for the sake that they are married. She wanted love and she knew that it is not in her fate,she had accepted it. She wanted privacy,she can't be with him in the same room atleast for today. She needed to gather herself,after all that happened .

"Kyu?"asked Azael as he lifted his hand to touch her but Ada flinched.

(Why?).

SHE FLINCHED when all he was trying to comfort her .

"Sir-f A-aj raa-t ke li-ye,bu-ra ma-t maaen-ga" said Ada stuttering  looking down not having the courage to look in his eyes.

(Only for tod-ay,do-nt feel b-ad).

Azael was too stunned to speak. He understood that there were many unsaid things. He decided to give her privacy she asked for so that she'd be comfortable and would speak up someday.

He just led her to another room and left from there. He couldn't sleep that night. Something about Ada didn't feel right. He did not expect his wedding night to go like this. It's not like he expected intimacy but he atleast expected that they stayed in the same room.

He knew something happened between Ada and  haya too. He saw the longing look haya gave Ada. So many things that he needs to find out,he thought.

While Ada,removed her clothes and jewelry and took a bath. She lay on the bed thinking about how her life has turned in a few months. She knew she can't be like this forever. She is someone's wife and she made sure that she will try her best to be a good wife for the sake of the relationship.

Ada spent the whole night not able to sleep,crying and looking outside the window as the sun rose. She offered namaz and took a bath. She wanted to wear something simple but she knew the new bride things,so she wore a emerald green anarkali suit and kept her face natural with a little lipgloss. She combed her brown hair and put them in a braid. She hated to keep her hair open. She set her dupatta on her head and took a brown shawl to cover herself. These days shawl has been her bestfriend,wearing them she found herself being safe.

She looked at herself in the mirror. She was looking pale. she hated herself for being like this but certain things can't be helped. She stood there staring a herself. Gathering some courage she was all set to face the day.

She went to the living room and sat there waiting for her husband. She knew that they were having their breakfast in the main house with his parents so she decided not to make any breakfast.

Azael  came downstairs and was suprised to see Ada sitting in the living room lost in her own thoughts.
He can see her effort in dressing up. He can see her dark circles. He can see how pale she looks. He can see how she has lost a lot of weight and is lifeless in front of him. He walked towards her and stood in front her keeping some distance. After the way she flinched last night,he knew that she was not comfortable in other men touching her.

"Assalamualaikum" he said.

Hearing her husband's voice,she stood up suddenly and lost her balance. She felt light headed.

"Jii, waalaikumasalam" she said trying hard not to fall.

"Aapki tabiyat theek hai?" Asked Azael  sensing that she is not even able to stand properly.

( Are you alright?).

"Ji" was all she said.

"I'll go get ready and if you want you can go to the main house I'll meet you there ?" He asked not wanting her to wait longer than she already did.

"Nahi,mein aapke sath chalthi hu"she said .

(No,I'll go with you).

And that aap did something to his poor heart. He knew she was very nervous around people but he wanted her to feel at home. He knew his mamma and baba are very friendly and will not treat her bad. But he also decided to take it slow.

So he left to get ready while Ada sat there waiting for her husband.