Leigh's vent poems/notes

Love..

Love.
Do I even deserve it...?
Do I need it..?
I question that every day of my life...
Who would love someone who's broken like me...
HE made ME like this...
Broken...Am I really..?
I feel like a broken mirror...
I'm falling apart...
Apart..??
No...
I'm doing this to myself...
I'm unable to be myself again...
I blame him but was it really all him...?
I need someone to blame...
Why...
Why must I end up like this..
Love..
Someone who likes another.
Someone who LOVES another....
I did that for so long...
It broke me in the end.
I did everything I could...
Everything turned into nothing...
Love...
The feeling of it I miss...
But I feel it...
I just miss the feeling of BEING loved...
I really do.
It's an amazing feeling...
But do I deserve to be given that kind of love...?
Someone needs it more then I do...
Been told that I deserve the WORLD
I don't think I do...
Laughing and caring for one another is something HE never did...
I was treated...different
"You won't find any comfort in me..."
Still runs in I head I want to get away from you...
I want to get away from HIM
A part of me has developed to be like HIM...
Who am I...
Love....
Something I NEED...
Because he NEVER gave me that...
Feeling comfortable with someone and letting my walls down....
I DESERVE IT...
Do I..?
Am I selfish....?
I'm a horrible person and I know that..
Love.....