The Crazy Ex

The Attempt

TW: SU!C!DE ATTEMPT, SH

THIS IS A FAKE SITUATION THAT I HAVE MADE UP.

I look in the mirror. "You are such an idiot... jack loved you" I say in the mirror over and over. I look at the rope in my room. I tie it to the ceiling with a spot for my neck. I write a note.

The note: Hi! Sorry for barging in in you life. Jack loved me I think and I have so much regret. I feel guilty because I like Jason too.. I'm sorry... thank you for being there for me when it was needed, but it will never be needed again from me. Hope you have a good life. Goodbye.

I place the note on my nightstand. I grab the chair in my room. "Goodbye..." I say. I put my head in the hole and moved the chair. Then the door opens and it's you best friends husband. "PARIS?!" He yells trying to get me out. Ashley runs down and helps. Then I blacked out. Before I blacked out I said "goodbye friend see you again one day."

I wake up in a hospital bed and Ashley is sitting there nervously and so is Jason. I hear the beeping and I start to freak out. "WHERE AM I?! MAKE THE BEEPING STOP"  I yell while covering my ears. The nurse's rush in. "Paris calm down" Ashely tells me. I start having a panic attack. It reminded me of when my mom died when I was 7. I heard the same beeping. "Make it stop make it stop make it stop" i whisper to myself over and over again. I get up and try to walk out. "Where do you think you're going" one of the nurse's says. "Home. To get away from the beeping" I say with anger. "You can't go home." I roll my eyes. I go back to the bed and lay down again. My neck starts to hurt. I forgot what someone or I did to me. "Why does my neck hurt" I ask. "You tried to hang you're self." Ashley says. "I wish it would've worked.." I mumble. "What?" Jason and Ashley ask. "I wish it would have worked" I say. Ashley looks at me concerned and so does Jason. " Why is Jason here anyways?" I ask. "Because I care about you paris" he replys. "Mhm" he grabs my hand. " I am worried. Please except that" he says. I don't respond. "You are going to a mental hospital" the nurse says. My eyes open wide. "No.." I say scared. "Not again. God damnit" I say. " please.. I don't want to go back." The nurse looks down. Then they transfered me to the mental hospital.

3 weeks later.

I come back to go to Ashley's house. I walk in and she hugs me. "Please don't do it again" she pleads "mhm" I walk back to my room. I look at the rope and the memories came back. I stood back on the chair. "Hey babe did you clean her room and get rid of the rope?" Ashely asks her husband. "Shit. I didn't" he says. Ashley runs to my room seeing me about to put my head back in through the hole while I'm on the chair. Ashley pulls me down and sits me on the bed. Her husband came in and got rid of all the ropes and sharp things in my room. I sigh. "Paris. You need to stop this." She tells me. I roll my eyes. Then she leaves the room. I look through my bag and find a blade. I cut and cut and cut. Cuts on my arms, legs, chest, thighs, and shoulder. I hear someone coming up and put a hoodie on and hide the blade. Someone knocks. "Come in.." I say.

Then Jason comes through and gives me a big hug. It hurts because of the scratches on me. "Ow" I say softly. "Sorry I didn't notice I was hugging you so tight" He says. "Its fine" I say. I lift my hand up and my sleeve comes down enough to show the cuts. I hurry and put my arm back down hoping he didn't notice. "Paris what was that" he asks me. "What was what?" I ask playing dumb. He grabs my arm gently and trys to roll my sleeve up. I snatch my arm away from him. "Let me see" he says sternly. I say nothing. He snatches my arm back and rolls it up. I see tears forming in his eyes. "Take the hoodie off." He demands. "No" he looks back at my arm. "Now." He says angerly. I take my hoodie off only having a sports bra on under. He looks at me with a worried face. "Some of these... are going to scar" he tells me. He goes in the bathroom and gets some disinfected for the cuts. He goes over them carefully disinfecting them. After he gave me a hug. The he whispered in my ear " don't do it again.. please." "I'll try" I say. Then he leaves my room

I go in the mirror and look at all the cuts. I start to feel the pain from them. I go to my bed and watch a movie. Then I heard someone coming up so I put my hoodie back on. It's Jason. He comes in and lays next to me. I take my hoodie off because I start to get warm. I put my head on his shoulder and i feel him put his hand on side. I start to fall asleep and then when he thought I was asleep he said " I love you so much Paris. I really wish I could tell you how much I love you. If i ever see someone lay a finger on you again I will hurt them"
"Well you just told me" I say. He looks over at me " uhm.." then he looks down and blushes. "I love you too" I say softly as I fall asleep on his shoulder.